Layla

yeah your telling me lol

I have figured out what by holding on to my anger and hate for my mum, that gives me a reason to why im so bitter and short tempered myself...dose that make sense?

So if i didnt hold on to that, then i have no excuse for being the person i am, being as i dont want to be angry all the time anymore, i have to let go of the feelings from my mum to be able to move on, and in fact, i know now that i dont hate her atall, i hate what she did, but i dont hate her.

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Tam

Makes perfect sense babe!!

Wow, this could really be the making of you......it certainly seems to be giving you some answers!

Layla

OK, im in the last Three days of my detox and strange stuff is happening! lol

This is the crown Chakra in on now and its psychic/spirural side of me.

I was wondering if it would be hightend being as i already have the gift already..

Yesterday, i was at my friends house talking about her hubby, they are seperated at the mo. when i suddenly knew he was coming back and it would be that night, dont ask me how i knew, i just saw it in my head, so i told her, she said dont be silly etc etc, but this morning she text me saying he turned up on her door step at midnight asking if they could get back together!

Also today i had a feeling Helen (from here) was having a day day, it was a bit of a random thought so i dimissed it, but i have just seen her thread about her day and it fits in to what i was feeling!

The other thing is i keep getting teh feeling we are going to have a water leak, im constantly looking at teh cellings and walls to see if i can see water...nothing yet but in sure its going to happen.

Spooky!!

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Imi

Ohhhh layla ....

That is spooky! glad your detox is going well though!
xxx

Layla

Nothing to report today, everything is very calm, still getting nams and imiages flashing in my mind, and yesterday when i closed my eyes to sleep i got very bright pink colours swirling around me whcih was nice.

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Layla

All done today, detox over, My Reiki teacher last night had me and another bloke doing Reiki 2 work on certian members of the class, one girl has blocked ovariys, she had an op to unblock them 2 days ago and was in pain, so my teacher aske dme to do healing on her on a diffrent level (she showed me what to do)
Another had back problems and she told me to re balance his chraka system, i asked how and she said i will know, and i did, it was strange!

She said that i am a diffrent person now, no longer ngry and bitter with teh world, she said i hold my body better and give off good positive vibes. She also said, they lesson i went in all angry and uptight i imtimodated (sp?!) her lol

Her last words to me in fron tof the class were, 'when you do your Reiki to it will be magic!'

Kind of felt a bit silly that she said that to me in front of the whole class, dont want them thinking im fave or anything.

Anyway, i feel great, no more anger, no more bitterness, i forgive my mum and all those who have hurt me and i have let it go...
I have deicded not to contact my mum, we are living two diffrent lifes now and i dont know her, she doesnt know me, but i do forgive her, i will ask my sisters to pass that message on just so she can have peace of mind.

I will defo go on to do my Reiki 2, im told teh attunment and detox for that is more powerful, so my next diary should be fun! lol

Thanks for letting me waffle on for the past 3 weeks

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hypnorm

thank you its been great to read and understand that its not quite the mumbo jumbo i thought it might be! sounds a good thing to do, something i might look at in the future.

Layla

i completed Reiki 1 last night and got my certificate

Next thursday i go on to do Reiki 2!!

Which means another attument, and another 21 day detox, does anyone want me to keep another diary?

xx

Arcanegirl

Yea please, was very interesting to read this one.

Trinity

Yes please Layla .. think it was great and loved reading it all!

Congratulations on your certificate too