fantastica

Don't know if this is the right place....but saw one about eds in here and have seen a few people mention it so

Just wondering if there are many people on here dealing with self-harm etc? Or who have done?

Only realised today how long i'd stopped for...but right now there's nothing i want more! Argh

bumpsmum

hey hun yeah Im sure this is the right place. Sorry to hear your feeling the urge but well done for being strong enough to fight it for so long. Im not sure what I do is classed as 'self harm' but some might say it is, I think If I leave it unchecked though I could easily see it escalate so I have an app with a psychiatrist today.

Basically I have PND and think the most horrible thoughts to tak my mind of it I pick at my skin and tweeze leg hairs obsessivly I have also began to tug on my hair (not enough to pull any out but enough for it to hurt - which I get a sense of relief and distraction).

It is good to know that you are pre-empting a relapse as talking about it and seeking support will help. I must admit im a bit cautious of going into specifics on an open forum and been toying with seeing if the mods were able to create a locked usergroup like GS for mental health issues. However very happy to talk more via PM if you ever want to chat xx

Drazic<3

Bumpsmum is totally right, by pre-empting a relapse you are really showing how far you have come. Would you consider going to the doctors and asking for some support?

I self-harmed for several years, and since losing Edan I have found it really hard to not go back there (getting a massive tattoo helped! ) but I already hate my massive scars and ruined arms. If you need someone to talk to, I have been there (am there?!) and will always listen and try and support you.

RinnaRoo

Im right there with you. When I was younger for some reason I became massively depressed, and it kinda went away when I became focused in high school.

But when my mom passed when I was in the Army, I felt the most alone, unwanted, and overall heartbroken. Unable to eat, sleep, and basically stop cutting my self.
To make things worse, I didnt know what REALLY happened to my beloved and beautiful mom. She committed suicide out of no where. She was never that kind of person, and had never attempted before. She wrote me letters everyday about how she was so excited to see me after basic, all the fun things we would do. And she was ripped from my life, my best friend, who told me she would never leave me behind, who had promised...

So I became a lost soul.

Cutting myself, trying to drown my self, attempting hangings.

I had to go through alot of growth to get to where I am. And I COMPLETELY understand what its like to want to cut. Its like a massive release of emotions.

We just have to realize that we ARE better than that, and we ARE loved and needed by many. So many people depend on us to be alive and well centered. I find comfort in that now.
I hope that you know how special and beautiful you are and how much people love you. <3

kmh2009

im with you aswell. not doing so positive though

MrsRoughton

i self harmed a lot in my teenage years and eventually ended up being sectioned. i have not self harmed in a long time but its always there when i am stressed, but i try to think of where it could lead me and i have one friend who is a massive support and who i can tell anything and she would never judge. and like Drazic i have been left severly scarred. i would go to your gp or if you have a close friend to talk to try nd tell them how you feel. and you can always pm me xxx

Kitten

I haven't done it in 3 years now

Well done on recognising you're in a bad place and looking for help x

faille

I've been there as well hun and some days I still fight the urge to need to do it just as a means of release.

The biggest part of my life was when I was 15-18, those were the toughest and darkest years of my life where self harm was the worst.

I have had the urge recently to do it and I must admit that on one occasion it just got too much I did do it.. Got the scar and then had to lie to OH about how I got it. It was worth it at the time but the lies and feelings afterwards wasn't... So if you are getting urges again then speak to somebody hun, don't go backwards xx

If you ever need to talk then feel free to pm me x

Windmills

I used to SH, my thighs are quite badly scarred from it.. I haven't for about 2 years or so, but it's hard. Especially now I'm dealing with so much related to FOB, I get the urge so so often.

katy

I also used to self harm. I haven't done it now for about 4 years but I used to be quite bad. I was sent to counselling etc but in the end I beat it by myself. I have scars all over my stomach and legs from it and I hate the stomach ones now because whenever I have to show my bump to someone you can see them all there xx