I completely know what you mean hun I took on overdose of sleeping tablets last year and when i woke up at the hospital the next day they said i was medically sound and so i must be fine now.Didnt refer me to counselling or anything just recomended i return to my local mental health centre, i told them no way because at the time i was quite paranoid about them.They ended up giving me a home nurse and that helped massivly.I ended up returning to the centre after a while but half the time when i go to the counsellor i just say keep saying things until i get a rise out of her because she never responds, now shes moving somewhere else so im getting shifted to another for the millionth time.I never bother telling them how i really feel anymore, they dont have the time and they dont really care, i wouldnt trust a single one of them, they just want to push medication on people without even considering other options first.Been seen by so many at this point im sick of them and know they dont give a toss.You gotta get better yourself, you have to pick yourself up and fight it alone because theyre not gonna help a dime.Its better that way anyway, you have yourself to thank when you get back to a better place mentally and the knowledge that if you slip again it will be ok, because you've beaten it before and you can beat it again.

I self harmed from the age of 12-19, i know how you feel.I won't explain the reasons why i done it and what i done as i would be here forever and a day but the important part is i haven't SH since apr 07. I never spoke to anyone about it,not even my friends-especially not any counsellor or doctor.The only person i told,was the person who stopped me from doing it and one of the reasons why i haven't done it since.It paid off for me opening up about it to someone who cared about me,so one thing i have learnt is not to keep things to myself.A problem shared is definately a problem halved.If anyone wants someone to talk to,i would be happy to listen xx

self harm can be seen in many ways...although i hurt my self when a teenager it escaleted into alcohol abuse as i got older..the urge was exactly the same except i used strong alcohol to numb it.Last time i cut my self was almost 3 yrs ago.It so easy to do and the triggers seem more and more lately..but im off the alcohol and the urges to self harm further are disapearing..Medication has helped greatly and now just started to see my thearapist.Im hoping i can put this way of thinking behind me and move on.
wishing all you ladies best of luck..
xxx