ARRRGGHH!!!

Getting really annoyed with myself... what with the day Ive just had.... I really thought bingeing was behind me but I now think not!!

I put on 5 stone when I was pregnant... and was carrying an extra 18lb or so than I was in Summer 06 (my aim weight)!!

I lost about a stone and half on my own (with baby) after i had courtney! I then began to struggle and joined Slimming World.. I weighed in ar 17 stone 2lbs on 4th November

wk1- -7lb
wk2- -0.5lb
wk3- -1.5lb
wk4- +1.5lb
wk5- - 4lb
wk6- -2lblb
wk7- -1lb (super happy my 1 stone sticker just before xmas)
wk8- +3lb (expected it as it had been xmas week)
wk9- -2lb
wk10- +2.5 (very upset with myself)
wk11- -2lb
wk12- -1.5 finally back to pre xmas weight
wk13- -3lb
wk14- -0lb
wk15- +3lb
wk16- -4lb

I am getting there but some weeks I am really not motivated and just feel so PISSED (sorry) off with myself I could cry!! I know 2 and a half stone is good.... but I have 3 and a half stone to go... and I wont be happy till I get there!! I just do not feel like me at this size!!

Me at my biggest-


Me at my smallest-


Me most recently-



Im continuing going to SW meetings as being weighed by someone else is definatly motivation but Im going to try a different take on it and go back to basics... I counted calories when I got to my smallest and I was so disciplined and dont remember feeling down or depressed about not having foods that I liked...!!

Please give me some encouragement or any advice that you may have??
Im going to spain in 6 weeks... Im not expecting the life of me to get back into a bikini but I refuse to buy anything bigger than a 14-16..!!

Im so disappointed with myself!!

I'm sorry I don't have any advice as I am now a big fat whale myself, but I know you can do it!! You have been there before, and you can get there again!!

Don't be disappointed! Today is a new day and a new start! I need to get back on track myself, and even just you starting a journal has reminded me that I need to get healthy again.

Thanks hun... I do know I can do it aswell... deep down!! But being bigger than ever I do have a bigger appetite that what i had when I only had to lose a few pounds... so it is harder!! I always used to think that the bigger you are the easier to lose... but I dont really stand by that theory anymore cos the bigger I am the bigger my appetite and where as before I only had a few pounds to lose now I have a mountain and feel more disheartened therefore I eat!!

Grrrr....its so hard

I know I really want an ice cream right now

Looking at my first picture though I have come along way.... and seeing it with a picture has spurred me on... just at the gym now...

30 mins spinning class killed me.... cant wait until I get my fitness back to my aim piccy!!

Today is a new day and not sure whether to go to my slimming world meeting tonight!!
Feeling positive again

your doing really well hun, i have started te cambridge diet, extreme but worked for me before i got preg so i have gone back to it.
you seem to have the detemination to do it hun so you will

Lou
xxx

i tried that once too... but it was way to hard for me...!! I have a few shakes left and have debated whether to try again!!

Good luck with it!!

Well i put on a pound and a half...

But hey could have been worse!! Glad I went... !!
This has got to be it now... I need to stay focused... and calorie counting is my plan for the week ahead!! I am also re-reading paul mckenna I can make you thin!! He speaks alot of sense and I have lost weight reading and following his book previously!!

Say goodbye to a fat Kerry... and hello to meeeeeeee

I so know how ya feel hun...u no the thing that gets me tho is that wen i was a few years younger a size 12-14 i thought i was FAT!! man id do anything to be that size again.
and i no i can do it deep down its just having the determinaton....and im swayed sooo easy. but i no i want to stick to it so bad. it jus sees like maan im so bigger now so i have sooo much to loose and ya jus wana see it all in 1 day....but u have done sooo well i cant wait have to have mine wen i have 16 week countdown xxx good luck hun xxx
we can moan to each other bout al the things we want to eat and cant xx

Good luck hun, I'm calorie counting too plus killing myself on the treadmil