Just to compound how i felt on friday.. my brother in laws girlfriend 35 weeks preggo broke her waters in my living room yesterday!!! Its really exciting knowing i'll be an auntie within the next day or two.. but it still hurts they are having a baby within an unstable relationship and she was

'by accident' when i'm trying to plan and ttc sensibly!!!
Just trying to stay positive and look forward to meeting my nephew or niece...i'll die if its a girl as everyone in their family has boys so she'll be extra special if its a girl!!!!!They've all said if we have kids i'm not special enough to have girls and bound to have boys which are 2 a penny within the family.....
I'm going quietly mad!!!!
Mixed emotions right now is an understatement.....