I really don't know how much longer I can wait to have a babe. I at first thinking in the fall. I now realize I can't do that.

Sooo, that means I will either being doing it this month or at the end of July. I can't in June b/c SO will be out of town for 2 weeks around the time I ovulate.

I really would like to get started tomorrow, but I think I may just wait until July even though it's driving me crazy. Okay, I admit part of the reason I want to wait is cuz I wanna go to Six Flags lol. I'm afraid of miscarrying if I get on some of those rides, and I would never, I mean NEVER forgive myself if that happened. I also figured waiting a few more weeks would give me more time to grieve, allow me to save up a lil more money, and allow SO and I more time to work on our relationship. Oh yes, and if I wait a lil longer I can get onto OH's insurance. He he.

But I'm going craaaaaaaaazzzy!!!!!

A u know from my other post im right with u on this one

Hows ur oh about this? Does he want to try or is he like my oh says to leave it a few months but then doesnt use anything?

OH seemed to go along with TTC right now, but I need to tell him I've changed my mind. Last night we talked about it, and he said he wanted to be a daddy.

Our conversation was kinda funny. He was like "You're not gonna love me anymore when you're in all that pain!" I was like, "You mean in labor? Of course, I will!"

He didn't seem quite as excited as me, but he didn't say no lol.

thats a great sigh......psycho but nice (as only us mad women could think)

Nevermind on baby for now. Our sex life is not to good.

hells bells. Do i totally understand....dh and I are gonna practice the withdrawl method this week until he feels better. hey its a step up from condoms (i refuse to stick plastic bags up my you know what anymore).

Men are such babies - they are great practice for when you actually get one ha ha

I thought SO and I had agreed that we would TTC in late July, but I don't know what's going on now. Yesterday we talked about it a little, and he didn't sound so enthused. He said now is not a good time. Really, he's right, but I don't know how much longer I can wait. I also wish he was a excited as I am.

If I'm gonna miscarry again, I'd rather just get it over with rather than healing then going thru all this again. I guess my motives are a bit selfish, but I can't help it. I'm really scared there may be something wrong with me, I'd rather just find out now.

I know you feeling yucky but take a deep breathe and try to find out whats up with Dh. Maybe hes scared of you becoming more depressed.

Did you find out if there are reasons for your m/c? most women have them - sometimes a fetus is just not right and its better that it happens. While i can imagine its pretty devestating its not a lifetime sentence neccessarily.

What did your doc say?