Saxogirl

Hi,

Am gonna have to backdate this a little to start at the beginning so will try and condense!

I am 29 hubby 32, and have been together for 13 years, married for 8 and 1/2 we are both musicians and work together, consequently are together 24/7 which really works for us.

Weren't too worried about having kids initially, I had an accidental PG about 4 years ago but unfortunately it ended in miscarriage at around 7 weeks (didn't know I was PG until it was too late, I now believe it just wasn't my time)

After the initial shock of the pg and m/c we talked about having children and decided the time wasn't right and were quite happy with that decision until about 6 months ago when all of a sudden OH got really broody and i followed suit quite quickly; came off BCP middle of Aug 08 and Sept has been our first month of trying. (Although we did get some BDing in in Aug just in case lol!)

10th Sept was CD1

Signed up for fertility friend around the time I thought I was ovulating, which I have found quite useful but as wasn't temping couldn't really tell me when I might have ov'd (so think will try Temping next month)

Then whilst symptom spotting in the 2ww and driving OH crazy ("just wait and see...." yeah right lol) found BnB and after a week of snooping signed myself up!

FF was insisting that I had a 26 day cycle (I always thought I was more like 28 but had never really paid that much attention)

Had a bunch of symptoms during 2ww but was trying to keep an open mind !

Saxogirl

SYMPTOMS

almost straight after OV my nipples went super sensitive and became v perky (if you know what I mean lol) and I had lower backache

The next thing I was all congested and nasal (but I have been known to suffer with sinusitus) this continued until approx 10dpo

also had nausea but only late at night

and some weird cramping

My boobs then got sore around the usual time so I thought ok not my month, but then they got a lot worse than normal so thought maybe afterall?

Slept a lot in 1ww (but had been on the road with work a lot so might just have been tired with that)

Chris77

Hi Welcome to the journals! Here's some for your journal! Good luck geting your !

Saxogirl

Oh I also had some indigestion (which I rarely get)

Decided to test (FRER) on CD26 but BFN. I thought I was having some sort of breakdown - didn't take that very well, just kept bursting into tears at random moments throughout the day and leaving OH to make up excuses for my psychosis! (Haven't told anyone we are TCC!)

Then about CD21 started to get some weird light pains just above my pelvic bone it almost felt like someone pushing their finger into my stomache but from the inside, this lasted a few days then went.

then yesterday I had some CM somewhere between dark cream and pale brown in colour which had a pinkish streak in (a bit like marble cake lol) Had never had this before and got excited thinking that it might be implantation?

Then today AF showed up, so here we go again, god this is an emotional rollercoaster, I can't help hoping it gets easier but thinking it can only get harder each month....

Saxogirl

Thank you Chris, is great to have people to chat to on here; everyone is soooo friendly and helpful! Goodluck to you too!

Saxogirl

Weirdly OH has been saying all the way through this last month not to get my hopes up the chances of conceiving first time was unlikely, then today when showed, he was more gutted than me!?!?!?

Saxogirl

Am feeling a little weird right now; I think that (without really realising it) I was believed that because we fell pg without even trying before, it would happen for us easily and we would be one of the lucky ones who did it first time round.....

This must have been going on somewhere in the depths of my brain because I hadn't given it any actual thought....

Why is it when you want a baby suddenly they are everywhere you can't turn around without seeing a pregnant lady or pushchair/pram?

dan-o

Hello fellow devonian!! Wishing you the very best of luck on your mission, lots of baby dust coming your way!!

I had the same feeling today, especially when I saw three people I knew at the doctors today all with bumps or newborns!!!!

Saxogirl

Thank you! good luck to the both of us for this month,

I guess the thing with seeing pregnant people everywhere you look, is that you can tell by the bump, you could see as many people tcc but just don't know it.

Am trying PMA but not really happening, still off to work now so hopefully will take my mind off things.....

Chris77

PMA isn't always the easiest thing in the world. Hang in there!