Hello Ladies,
I feel like each time I write an email message to one of the ladies around here I have to repeat my story so I'm going to just start from the beginning and have it posted once and for all
I am 31 and my husband is 45, we got married in March of 2001 and I went off the pill late in 2001. We were trying but not really charting or paying much attention. My last af was January 2002 and I believe I got prego on my birthday, Feb. 2nd, 2002 with a due date of Oct. 24th, 2002. Had terrible morning sickness but basically an uneventful pregnancy and a WONDERFUL delivery on Oct. 6th, 2002 with my baby girl Savannah Jewel.
I breastfead for a while with her and then one day realized I never had my af and I needed to take some special vitamins to go to a far away wedding but I couldn't take them prego so I did a test just to be sure. WOW, what shock, we were prego with #2 and I wasn't too sure on the dates but sadly MC in late May 2003 and it was a blighted ovum (sac but no baby inside).
I never went back on birthcontrol after her birth and then the MC so we weren't trying but also not using any birth control. Found out I was prego again with #2 in early Jan 2004 but MC at 7 weeks in early Feb-another blighted ovum.
Tried to get prego right after the MC and IT WORKED! Due date was same as my little girls due date, Oct. 24th. Had horrible morning sickness but guess what, there was a perfect baby in that sac this time around. Had a bad illness at the end of the pregnancy (unrelated to pregnancy) but had another WONDERFUL delivery with my baby boy Rocco Chrisitan on Oct. 12th, 2004.
So after several years of thinking I didn't want to have another child, love delivery but my son was high maintence (phew, he finally grew out of it), got to thinking about a third. The decision was a hard one for us but made the decision to have another in Aug of 2007. Had to add maternity insurance to my health insurance then had a waiting period to start ttc so that I didn't deliver the baby in the first 12 months of the policy.
Jan 2008 I was able to start ttc. Did the poas ov tests in month of April and May and it seemed I was ovulating on time, seems like it was day 17 of a 31 day cycle. May 12th was my last AF and I felt some implantation pains on day 9 which I had NEVER felt with my first two pregnancies (or probably did but didn't pay attention). I poas stick on 9dpo and got a

and I was SO excited, it finally happened, much later than I had hoped, I was looking for it to happen month 1!
I tried to remain positive but I started spotting 7w5days and sadly had my third MC on July 4th/5th 2008. I tired to get prego right after it but either I ovulated late or never ovulated so sadly it didn't happen. The witch was 6 days late, frustrating time cause I was not prego but the witch wouldn't come!
I'm excited now because

has visited and I just read the entire book "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" today and I am ARMED AND DANGEROUS now with my charting techniques so that

better lookout because I am hoping for my

very soon!
I have found so much comfort from the ladies on this site and wanted to just share one quick thought I had today. We all know how hard this is, especially the 2ww time but for those of us that have sadly had MC's the stress doesn't end with the

because we have to then live through the first x number of weeks until we either see there is a healthy baby on the scan or even further so thats a lot of weeks of stress, UGH.
Good luck and baby dust to everyone! I've become totally obsessed and had hoped to try to get back to some normal state but it doesn't seem to be happening but I feel better that I can do the charting and feel like I'm playing an active role now.
Okay, wow, that was long, just wanted to get it all out, thanks for listening!