So I started to read a lot of journals today and it seems like a good idea to have a place to keep your thoughts and records, or just to have somewhere to get stuff off your chest.. so here I am.
A little background...
I was on the pill for years up until at least 6 months ago when I come off it. We didn't start ttc, we just used different bc methods.
My last af started on 06 June and we decided that I'll go back on the pill so I went to the docs and started taking it on 13 June. However, over that weekend, we decided that actually, we want to start ttc so I stopped taking it on the Monday (which was the 16).
We started bd'ing like every day but on the 20 June (a Friday), I noticed a small amount of blood and cm on the tissue when I wiped after the fmu.. I didn't think too much of it at first but it lasted all day and the longer it lasted, the more worried I got.
It wasn't enough to warrant using a pad or anything but the next day it got a little heavier but only enough to fill one pad after a whole day (whereas with my usual flow, it's a lot heavier! sorry tmi).
This lasted until Sun or Mon (I can't exactly remember which but it got lighter and started to be only when I wiped again). I searched online for hours trying to figure out reasons why I might have bled and come to the conclusion that it was either the effects of being off the pill, then starting and then stopping again is such a short amount of time or ov bleeding (although I think it was too long for that).
Anyway, since then I've had what I thought are numerous 'symptoms' such as:
- Extreme tiredness. I cannot stop myself from falling asleep at about 8pm, no matter how much sleep I have the night before
- Feeling queasy. I've had huge surges of feeling really sick but haven't actually been sick as yet - this seems to have died down now but was really obvious about a week ago
- Extreme moods. I go from one extreme to the other and never get like that when af is due, I only ever get very tearful and take things to heart. But over the last couple of weeks, I've felt angry, upset, 'loved up', very happy, excited for no reason.... you name it, I've felt it!!!
- About a week ago, I felt really bloated and looked it - I usually get this when af is due but this was way before she was due to show her face.. it went for a few days but now it's back again
- I started to put on about 1/4lb every day! I gained about 5lbs overall when I didn't even change my diet or exercise - again, I usually experience weight gain the day before af but it usually all goes on it one go and then goes when I'm done. I have now, however, started to loose the weight without changing anything again
- A few weeks ago I felt hungry ALL the time, no matter how much I had eaten..... now, I don't fancy any food, even my fave food I don't want. Even though I'm hungry, the thought of food just doesn't do anything for me
- I've needed to pee alot more than usual when usually I can keep it in for a long time, now, if I need to go then I need to go!
- I've been gassy from both ends lol! Usually I don't really get like that.. I've also had constipation one day followed by a bout of the runs a few days later when usually I'm pretty errr regular sorry tmi!!
- This week my tea has tasted funny, I've always got a dry throat and I've got like this bloody taste in my mouth all the time
- I've also noticed very bluey/greeny veins *everywhere* since Sun
I've taken 3 tests so far - 2 CB digis and 1 FR 6 day early one..... all
If I go by the last
being on 06 June, she should have been here again on Fri but she didn't show and hasn't as yet either.
I took a test on Sat and again today, both claim to pick things up early but not even a little sign of a bfp.
I'm now feeling like I usually feel just before the witch is due so I'm expecting to see her this Friday.....
I know this is an extremely long post so don't expect anyone to get all the way through it lol, just needed somewhere I could get all my thoughts down in one place.
If anyone does have some words of advice after reading through it though I would really appreciate it as at the moment I just don't know what to think. I'm not even sure that I'm going by the right dates for my AF.
Heres some
for all the other girlies out there ttc
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