Wobbles

Oh Helen these days are flying in

I don't think your selfish you just need a BIG cuddle from your Mum.

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Helen

Day 22 of IVF Cycle
Day 7 of Stimming

Feeling better again today. Oh those moods swings are driving me crazy!

Worked at home today which is a big help. Definitely calmer without all interuptions. Back in tomorrow for last day which will be manic, but I'm really looking forward to some time off.

My old MD rang me today to see if I wanted to go for lunch but it was a no-go with me not being in the office. Had an email later from one of my colleagues saying he wanted to know if I could go next Wednesday. He does know about us doing IVF and I did explain on the phone that next week will be busy on that score. I guess that's people that have no idea what is involved for you. Will see how I am. I may be glad to get out of the house.

OH has just rung to say that he's going to have to work late as a problem has come up and he's on call. He must have asked me 5 times if I was ok doing injection on my own. Aw I must admit I'm a bit nervous to do it by myself.

Tummy getting bigger today. I've got that awful bloated feeling that you get before AF appears plus achy around ovaries still. Been feeling quite tired since we started stimming. Must all be good signs that things are happening (hopefully!).

H

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P.S. Thanks for the hugs. They really helped!

Helen

Day 23 of IVF Cycle
Day 8 of Stimming

Just done what may be last stimming injection. It all hinges on what Saddam says tomorrow. Hopefully all will be well and there will be lots of lovely eggs for collection in a few days time. We have enough drugs to do two more days of stimming if need be.

So it's another scan (internal) tomorrow with Saddam. She will hopefully give us dates for egg collection and embryo transfer for next week. Also we'll hopefully find out when I take the other drugs.

On the positive side, today was my last day at work for just over a week. So relieved to be out of there. Today was mega stressful, I just don't need it. I'm nervous about going back but hoping to avoid too much stress by working at home as much as I can.

Tummy bigger again today and still feel really bloated, but other than that ok. No pain or anything bad. Fingers crossed we get good news tomorrow.

H

xx

Tam

Helen

Day 24 of IVF Cycle
Day 9 of Stimming



Feeling great today. All went well with scan and Saddam was almost friendly. She said good morning, smiled and even wished us luck, despite me being a complete numpty and leaving our treatment schedule at home. Doh!

Follicles coming on nicely and lining building up too. OH noticed that Saddam wrote that we have 18 follicles. Doesn't mean will get 18 eggs or 18 embryos at the end, but it's a good start.

Two more stimming injections - tonight and tomorrow night. HCG injection on Sunday night. Sedative Monday night and egg collection on Tuesday. Now it's getting exciting!!!

H

xx

HB

Tam

Helen

Day 25 of IVF Cycle
Day 10 of Stimming

Having a quiet sort of day today. OH got up and went to work at 5am and not sure if he will be back tonight at all. There is a big project on at work and it could go right through the night. He's abstaining from today until egg collection day so I'm guessing that's my love life up the swanny for a couple of weeks. I haven't broken this to him yet, but I can't imagine wanting it until we have results back. Daft I know.

I was supposed to be helping out with big community weekend today. I've been up for an hour and helped out a bit but I've skivved off in favour of putting my feet up. They all seemed quite fraught and stressed when I went up there so I was glad that I'd made that decision. One of the women has really taken me under her wing. Her daughter is 27 and had part of her ovaries removed in the last few years so when we told her about the IVF she was wonderfully understanding. She's very mothering - in a good way. She gave me a big hug today and then took me off for a sit down and a drink to see how I was. So thoughtful.

On the subject of mothers, I arranged to go across and see mine yesterday. So I got that much needed hug and chat. We went up to see my Nana and planted some bulbs and some pansies for her. It was a really nice afternoon. My parents both have Thursday off and my Mum has Friday off next week. Think they'll probably come across on Thursday which should be embryo transfer day. We'll have to see what time our appointment is, but I'm so glad to be getting this much needed support.

H

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Tam

Helen

Day 26 of IVF Cycle
2 days before Egg Collection

OMG! I have EWCM! Not seen anything like that for months and months. My body seems to be actually doing what it's supposed to naturally! Feel quite excited by it!

OH came home from work at 4.30am this morning and then he couldn't sleep. Got up around 8 and headed off to work again shortly after. He has promised me that he won't be too long and that he will catch up on his sleep later. He's also said he doesn't think he'll work a full day on Monday. I'm starting to get worried that now when it's coming up to his crucial bit that he's going to be exhausted and not in tip top condition. So frustrated that his work has fallen like this.

Have also asked OH to go into work late on Wednesday so that he is around when hospital ring with news of embryos and date/time for embryo transfer. He has agreed to this.

Injections last night hurt quite bad. Had to use 3 needles and took 4 stabs to get them all done. Ugh! Glad they are the last ones of those. I think it is definitely worse when OH is not there. That's 2 consequetive nights he's missed now. One for work and the other to visit his Mum in hospital (she's just had some gall stones out). Between us, his Mum and his Dad we've seen just about every hospital in Yorkshire!

Tonight is HCG injection and it's critical that we do it at the correct time 11pm. Have changed the 3 alarms (yes, three!) that I've had on my phone to remind me to do stimming injection to remind me to do this one. Have told OH that I will kill him if he isn't back for this injection. He has promised me faithfully that he will be. Also start on some internal cream stuff using turkey basting type equipment. Yum!

H

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