Lump in my throat!

Helen I wish you so much luck in teh world - Will say a thought for you each day when I say a little one for me.

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DAY TWO of IVF CYCLE

I woke up feeling a bit ratty and irritable today. Not sure if its anything to do with the hormones or AF.

Worked at home today so had peace and quiet and didn't have to face any awkward questions.

H

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DAY THREE of IVF CYCLE

The drugs are definitely working. I had a night sweat last night.... ewwww. Had a few about 6 months ago so at least I knew what to expect. It's amazing how utterly soaking wet and drenched you can get.

Taking a towel to bed with me tonight...

H

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Day Five of IVF Cycle

Feeling surprisingly normal and have been the last couple of days, particularly to the relief of OH and the folks I met up with from the forum yesterday! No night sweats since that first one. Phew!

Had a hormonal moment this afternoon. OH's Dad is in hospital at the mo. He's in his late 60s, had a heart by-pass a few years ago and got taken in after some medication the doctor gave him for a bad back reacted strangely and sent his pulse racing up to 150-160 beats per minute. His blood pressure has also been up and they've had him on oxygen. Hospital told him that had the doctor not checked his heart rate and sent him to hospital, he could have had a heart attack and died. Pretty serious stuff really.

I took the call on Thursday from OH's Mum and first instinct was to rush across to hospital, pick her up on way and spend some time with him. Which we did on Thursday and on Friday evening after work. On Saturday, OH went in and took his neice as I was at the meet.

Now, OH's folks were supposed to be going on holiday yesterday for a week to Skeggy with OH's older brother and his wife... following so far? OH Dad insisted that OH Mum go anyway as this is the only holiday she will get before she has to go into hospital herself. Reluctantly, she agreed and in a way we were relieved as she doesn't drive and with older brother away we would need to help her do her shopping and other bits as she doesn't drive as well as hospital visits. We live about an hour away, I should point out.

We were pretty settled with the idea that we or OH alone would visit most nights as he works pretty near by and he can run his neice up a few nights too. Visiting hours are 6pm-8pm which means we would go straight from work and not get home till after 9pm having not had any tea.... still with me?

OH also has a younger brother, who lives a similar distance away. We'd hoped that, if nothing else, he would go and visit today, to give us a day off and a chance to catch up at home as well as chill out a bit. (I am trying to stay a bit stress free at the moment). To be fair, he has 4 kids and has just had his tonsils out so it's not easy for him to get across, but he could. Anyway OH and him had a big row today when he refused to go across. He wasn't in the slightest bit worried about his Dad, even saying "what's he ever done for me?". I mean, WTF!?

OH was furious and I was devasted and ended up in floods of tears. Can only put that down to hormonal lunacy as normally wouldn't expect to get so upset over something that I wasn't directly involved in.

TBH it makes you think, if that's what parenthood can result in, why bother?

H

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Day Six of IVF Cycle

Feels like time is motoring along. Can't believe this has nearly been a week! Felt really emotional again this morning. Felt as though I could burst into tears at any point. OH has right approach (the same approach he takes during PMT) which is to ignore it. Obviously women are different and I had a couple of women at work cooing over me today "are you alright?". It's lovely but it makes me want to cry.

I'm being told by all and sundry that I'm doing too much and I need to cut back a bit. For the first time I wondered about the feasibility of getting signed off sick for 6 weeks. It's not like me to give in, but part of me would just like to hide under the duvet for a while and sleep. Wonder what the doc would say? Work is really stressful and I know that's not good for me. What would you do, if you were me? Is it giving in?

H

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No I don't believe it's giving in from following your posts over the last couple of months it sounds likes your a blessing to the company & although irritating everyone seems to care for you!

I would say if you would much prefer to be at home & slog it in your PJs all day eat chocolate & dip doritos do it sod the stressful office someone elses problem - put your feet up & have some YOU time!! I would! :wink:

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Day 7 of IVF Cycle

I'm sure you (and my OH) will be relieved to know that I've felt a lot more normal today than I have in the last week and certainly more than yesterday. Bruise from injection has practically gone now, don't feel ratty, emotional or just plain loonie, just normal.

Phew!!

H

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