Nicnac

I can't believe I'm back on here agin and it's 4.38am, but I can't sleep and could kill OH

I may be over reacting, but we went out for dinner etc as in last thread, and they got back at 2.30am, ok, woke me a little, nothing major. Then proceeded to talk loudly, (and mens voives seem to boom and carry), they had music on. Walking on laminate in shoes - personal hate aarrgghhh.

And I'm tossing and turning I don't think I've been back to sleep. Then to top it...one last thunder round and the pair of them have disappeared! Now most of you are thinking, good riddance, but now I'm wide awake. He'll wander in some time tomorrow, and no doubt go to bed for the rest of the day. Yer, wicked. Thanks alot, I not only got to spend the night on my own, I now have the whole of Sunday too. Am I just being a bit selfish, or just a bit sleep deprieved?

Rant over

Nicnac

Think I went back to bed about 4.50am, and tossed and turned. OH then rang doorbell at 5.30am. Didn't speak just opened door and went back to bed. He finally came in about ten mins later and proceeded to get undressed in the bedroom. Belt jangling, shoes dropped on the floor. I was seething, but got to say I finally fell asleep. Weird isn't it, when you can't sleep without them there!

As predicted, I haven't seen him today thus far. I got up at 8.45am when the papers arrived, and it's been me, BnB and Sky ever since. I have a confession to make too. I had a fag! I feel really guilty but I was mad. It made me feel ill and I didn't finish it. Damn him for making me do that. OK, not strictly his fault, but I feel I can make wild accusations today.

I was really looking forward to a nice day today. Weather's actually quite nice here (for a change). Oh boo hoo me today.

Oh and POAS for fun. Don't know why..they're only ebay cheapies and don't test till missed AF, and I'm only CD21...so yep , but what did I expect. Just compounded my misery. On + note, boobs do look a little more veiny, and was warmer today than yesterday on BBT. Might be searching for signs!!!!

Have a good day all

Shinning_Star

Awww hunni, sorry you feeling all sleep deprived, bit inconsiderate, but there we go he's a man they can't help it! LOL just not programmed to think very often haha. Bless them.

Hope he wakes up and you get a little bit of the afternoon together, my dp been on nights so he'll sleep for next couple of hours.

No biggy on only what 21 days did you say, cld still be your month!

sjnams

Hi hun, sorry to hear your weekend was sleep deprived and don't worry about the bfn because that could still turn out to be a

krissi

Sounds really similar to my story, had very similar symptoms to you and I am 8 days til testing. I POAS today and was for me too. No idea what made me do it as i knew it was to early and it wasn't FMU, so stupid!! Burst into tears and have been very emotional ever since. Do feel slightly better though after reading that loads of people on here got s and then went on to get their the same month.

Fingers crossed for us both, looks like we will be testing together!!

NikiJJones

Sorry to hear about your bad night. Let's hope you can POanotherS in a few days time and get a BFP!
xxxx

Nicnac

Thanks for all the lovely posts girls

CD23 today and all over the shop. Sorry about my rants over the weekend. You may be glad to hear the OH survived the fall-out and lives to provide for another cycle (should this one, not be the ONE)

I'm beginning to think that, again, this month isn't the one. My sore BB's turned up on sunday, but have disappated a little now. Still ache but not as much. They always hurt more when I have a bra on too. How weird. Even the biro like veins are fading.

I had really bad constipation (sorry tmi) since Saturday, and that disappeared this morning (wasn't too upset about that one!). All my aches and pains in the tummy department are there...and you know what, same as last month. The familiar teary feeling is back. I know they may not be wholly accurate, but have been temping this week, and I'm dropping from a low 37 to a mid-high 36 deg. Spots have arrived and disappeared. Even the little pull/pain in uterus is back...so I guess this means the is on her way.

Was hoping to hold onto a little glimmer that this may be the one, but realistically, nothing feels any different. I think back about the whole EWCM issue, and think well..how could I be?

This sounds really selfish and mean, but I was reading everyone's BFP announcements, even the symptoms spotting ones, and wanted to cry. Ok, yep, now crying again.
Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy for them, so unhappy for me. I've even stopped hating women out on the street who have kids or bumps, because I think, they could be one of you guys. But it's just so hard. Just feel like I want hide in here.

You know I write these threads, and it feels great to get it all out, but then I feel guilty and miserable for being so dispondant. I'm sorry to anyone who reads this, yes today I am that miserable moo.

sjnams

Aww don't apologise hun we all get down sometimes. I know it feels sometimes that something that amazing could never happen to us, like winning the lottery, but every cycle you try brings you so much closer to your
IF the does arrive then you have a brand spanking new cycle to try again with and every cycle we learn something new about our bodies and cycles that brings us that much closer to our

Nicnac

Thanks SJ

Can't understand what I ever did without you girls!!

Here's hoping!! (for the BFP, closely followed by the lottery!!!!)

krissi

Its not selfish at all hun i think we would all be lying if we were to say whilst we are ecstatic for those that get their BFPs we are all a little jealous x its natural x

We are testing together on monday so we will work our way through the next few days together xx