NikiJJones

Sorry you didn't manage to get that BD in this morning. Maybe tonight will be more successful, but if your OH is anything like mine when he's late in from work, then I fully sympathise!! The "Too tired" one drives me mad!!! Especially when they won't even give it a go. Before TTC I'd never heard of a man who was "too tired" for it. Where does this suddenly come from?????
Any chance of tomorrow morning?
Sending Hugs,
xxxx

Nicnac

Morning

As predicted no BD'ing for me yesterday....and CP definitely down! OH didn't get home till 9pm, and by then I just took me and my very frowny face off to bed.

To be honest I know O is over, because this morning I didn't want to cry, didn't want to BD, and just had that "oh well, over for another month" feeling.
Odd isn't it, how the hormones can make you feel so different from one day to the next.

Have been thinking about our chances this month, and I guess we got some BD'ing in (not enough though ), but I don't rate them much.

For the last couple of days I've been woken because I'm really hot. This happens usually around O, and then I definitely know the is on her wicked way, because I boil up first thing in the morning. (OH says it's like sleeping next to a radiator).
This morning I didn't get it, so I know O is over..and from what I'm reading, my temps should stay up over 2WW to make a nice cosy home for a little bean.

I keep looking for signs & symptoms, but I know there won't be any yet...and I could possibly drive myself and everyone elsea round me crazy just by looking.

So I have made a decision............. I'm not going to look, worry or test until CD30 (as long as the wicked stays away), and I'm going to enjoy hearing everyone elses stories, laugh and chat with new found friends, (The Nicole Kidman thread was genius), and generally enjoy BnB

Looking forward to a FUN 2WW!!!!!!!!

TT's

Well done you for not looking or testing tioll cd 30....I wish I had that will power

You never know honey, one of those little fellas might have caught the eggy

NikiJJones

Sending you for the 2WW and hoping that some of the little swimmers are in there doing their stuff for you!!!
xxxx

sjnams

Hi Nicnac just been noseying about in your journal, and a lovely read it has been too! You never know, some little may just have caught that egg, you do read stories of ladies who have discounted themselves because they think they missed O and then the next thing you know they have their

Good Luck and have some

Nicnac

Beginning to think I may have this all wrong.

Checked CP again, and yes some of you may think I'm slightly obsessed, cos I am!! But anyway, I think it hasn't dropped. And then since searching other threads, apparently temps do drop after OV. To add to it, now I'm getting odd aches, there's been no EWCM, no sore boobs. Oh crikey I'm confused.

So I have signed up to FF, (got full marks on 1st test, oo er, get me!!)
I will defo start temping on next CD1, but I'm slightly concerned that this drop in temp, plus lack of achey bbs, and shifting CP (think it has mind of it's own, or I'm too dumb to work out where it is supposed to be), is indicating that I'm not OV'ing till late in cycle. And you need at least 10 days don't you?

Oh confused...again.....

See what this 2WW can do to a girl!

Nicnac

Trying, desperately, not to think about things over the next 10 days or so.

Trying and failing somewhat. Though I said I wouldn't obsess over symptoms & signs, I've been temping a couple of mornings...no idea why when I have nothing to compare it to, ok I may have looked a couple of peoples charts to see how my 36.78 compared, and you know what...still have no clue!

Still checking CM & CP...what I'm expecting to find, again I don't know? All this inspite of 2 really busy days at work, a small catering function for my Ma, and a stand up row with some lazy a$$ed builders.
Yes my friends, I still have no home! I decided to camp out here for the evening whilst OH is out with his mate from Big Smoke, and enjoy some solitude with my laptop..well me, laptop, Big Brother and a large bowl of strawberries and melted 85% dark choc. Mmmmmmmmmmm!!! Oh and I nearly forgot! Complete and utter possession of the remote control, Yipeeee.

I've been dead good, and not touched a drop for my 2WW, not even a sip at the party! Feel rather smug. Not sure if I have a sixth sense of being PG. I would love, love, love it, and deep down I kind of think this maybe the month. I say that then reality kicks in and I think not.

Guess this is the joy of the 2WW!!

On a positive note I have a hair appointment tomorrow morning. Looking forward to a good old pampering. And I splashed out on some fancy face stuff today too.

Can't believe I still have way over a week to wait!!

NikiJJones

Hope you enjoy your evening in. Chocolate and strawberries! YUM!!
That should be what we all do every day in the 2WW!
xxxx

Nicnac

Aarghh the 2WW is killing me.

My strawberries & choc was lovely last night, until OH returned rather abruptly and he and BM proceeded to scoff the rest! Then talked over Big Brother. How rude!!!

Been off to hairdressers today for a pampering...took 3 hours! But I love the atmosphere in my hairdressers (2 Gay guys and a gaggle of women). Sat with my copy of Elle, Marie Claire & Cosmo and relaxed! Fab! Wobbled over whether to have the blond put back into hair, cos I heard that bleaching isn't good if your PG, then thought I was getting alittle ahead of myself, and even if I am this month, I'm sure one last go, isn't going to hurt.

Been feeling twinges in my belly, both left and right sides, and then one across too. Really trying to ignore them, as they could well be to do with constipation (sorry tmi). CM seems to be increasing, and is white, but boobs don't feel any different. Though must say I usually get sore ones after O, and haven't this month.

Keep my cycle dates in my diary and have been counting and re-counting the last couple of days. Can't stop, so have decided there isn't going to be much chance of me holding out till CD30/31 to test.

In a much better mood the last couple of days, but then the slightest sad thing/thought will make me cry. Generally feeling really happy!! How very odd?!?

Hope everyone's having a lovely weekend.

Nicnac

End of the day and curled up with BnB and Big Brother....again...note to self must get a life!

Have been out for dinner with OH & BM, but decided to leave them to it, because I couldn't keep my eyes open. Have been so tired the last few days. For most of this week I've been in bed by 9.30pm, and today I crashed out on the sofa for 1 1/2hr, dead to the world. Even with the cricket on in the background. OH must have thought it was Christmas!!

Was thinking earlier that I always intended this to be a journal detailing all the twinges and feelings over my cycle, because in the past I went through every month thinking is this different from last month? Did I feel like this before, is this any different. Then the witch would fly in and I'd hate myself for trying to convince myself that this month was the one. Again!

So amongst the moans about the builders I guess I should be listing this stuff too. Turn away now if TMI

Sharp pain in middle abdomen occasionally, like a little streak. Dull ache roundbase of stomach. Some dull feeling in left and right belly. It's not all the time, just on and off during the day. I have a feeling that this is quote normal for me the week before AF. CWCM and quite prevalent, but not gushing or anything. Boobs started aching today, but not nipples (sorry if anyone is actually reading this). So so tired. Teary at alot (could be the tiredness). , but quite weirdly even when I'm happy. Bizarre!

In a last ditch effort I've been chucking the grapefruit juice down my neck. Does help that it's one of my faves, so all good there!! And added teaspoon of honey into my fruit teas. Ooo get me!

OH wanted to earlier, but (and I feel really bad about this), part of me was honestly too damn tired. It was right before I fell asleep on the sofa. The other part genuinely didn't want to, because there is a school of thought, and I'm learning that it is just a school of thought **ie. don't quote me** is that maybe you should refrain during 2WW. Is that bad? Not really fair after how much I demanded of him only a mere 7/8 days ago

It's a rollercoaster isn't it. Just relieved I can do this. Always felt weird talking to friends about this for fear of coming across obsessed.

You know what, phew, feel better for that.