wannabmum

Thanks for all your support girls but was , to call later to make appointment to go for review next week to c if they gonna do anything different nxt time then just need to decide when gonna try again.

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FJL

I'm so sorry hun

Please let us know when next cycle is planned so we can continue to support you through this difficult journey.

How are you and DH doing?

wannabmum

Thanks again huni, will update in here when bn to review and we have arranged next cycle, were really bad this morning but just need to remember how lucky we are to have each other and believe that it will b our turn........... sum day! Just need to try and get myself strong again so we can start again, I will be getting a call in next couple of days to let me know if the woman who got rest of my eggs got her , I don't grudge her at all and really hope she has got a positive result but don't think I will b doing egg share nxt time only as I feel I have to b a bit selfish to give us the best possible chance I can of a positive outcome.sorry if that sounds bad

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FJL

You are NOT being selfish in any way, shape or form by not egg sharing next time!

The fact that you did it at all (and especially on your first cycle) goes to show what a SELFLESS person you are, you could never be labled selfish hun, you did an amazing thing for a couple and even if they get a BFN, you displayed an absolute priceless gesture and act. I am so proud of you

I think its a good thing to keep all your eggs and after you have your babie(s) and you want to egg share, then thats great, but for now, think of YOU because you are the priority right now.

Thinking of you with love
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Arcanegirl

already been texting you

tansey

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Helen

I was so sorry to hear your bad news

I totally understand where you are coming from on the egg donation thing and it's not at all selfish not to want to do that right now.

Let us know how the review goes next week.

wannabmum

Thanks again everyone, Clinic have just called us the want is to go tomorrow morning at 10 to 9 for review, they like u to wait at least couple of months to let ur body get bk to normal so think we gonna try again in Nov, Words can't express how much this hurts had to go to Asda yesterday n think it must have bn national baby day in there everywhere I turned there was baby's frm newborns up I just wanted to turn n run stupid I know just felt , I keep feeling this huge sence of loss which is just stupid how can I feel like that over something I NEVER had . Thought I was managing ok apart frm Asda till came thime to go to bed then just couldn't hold bk the tears I just feel like my body has let me down and I have let us both down!! This is going to sound really stupid but thoink the biggest thing is for some reason since I was bout 10 always felt I would never b able to have children n although our prob seems to b MF I don't have any they know of I just feel it all coming true, I told DH that last nite he reakons I prob felt like that frm kid as I was adused n always felt alone so maybe I just always expected to b alone..

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maz

I'm so sorry to hear of your news. Like you said, you have got each other and can gain support from knowing that. Plus, we're always here for you in spirit if not in body. I think you were very brave to donate your eggs and it was a wonderful thing to do. Nobody in their right mind would think ill of you for not wanting to do that next time. When you are successful with your treatment, you could always donate some embryos if you wanted. There are bound to be couples out there that would be extremely grateful for them. But until that time, just think about you and your DH, and try and stay strong for each other.

akcher

I am so sorry to hear of your BFN. To donate your eggs to someone just shows how great of a couple you both are. I hope they have a plan of action for your next IVF cycle. Did you do day 3 transfer or day 5? I read day 5 transfers may give you a better chance of the egg survival. I wish all the luck in the world for your next try.