xxxjacquixxx

Ok, so Ive decided I'm going to start my own journal from the here and now...

Im Jacqui, Im 30 years old, Dh is 37. I already have 3 gorgeous kids, Ryan is 12, Courteney is 9 and Lily may is 4. The eldest are from a previous relationship and Lils is mine and DH 's. Dh has wanted another babba for ages now but ive taken a bit of convincing! But now Im convinced, I am hooked!

We started last month (april) to ttc and on 17 th april I had some very faint positives but ended up having a chemical pregnancy, started spotting on 20th and m/c on 23rd. I was gutted beyond beleif but couldnt wait to try again. I'd had a taster and really really wanted it by now.

So straight after m/c at 5weeks 3 days, we started trying again. I bought some cheapie opk's from fleebay and started testing from cd7 right up until cd 17 but never manged to get a peak. The fact that I couldnt hold my wee for longer than 1 1/2 hours prolly played a big part.

Around cd14 I started to get EWCM and bd'd loads just incase I was going to OV.

cd 21 started with tingley nipples, sensitivity to smells making me barf, burping & gas etc, and extremely tired all the time and thought this was how it all started last month but without the back ache. My fingers were quietly crossed.

I tested cd 25 and think I managed to get 4 evap lines as they were all so very faint!
Tested again cd 26 for the testathon and a

I am due A/F around tue/wed but cant be sure because of the m/c and not really taking much notice of cycle length before april, all I know I used to have 28 day cycles before Lily was born and I ov'd on the 14...just going from this. I obviously wont know until shows her head this cycle, but I hope she doesnt.

Im not going to test again now until wed as all this is totally taking over my life.
My bb's are still achey, nipples still very sensitive, still feel tired and have a headache, keep getting twinges in my hips and back and gas but this could be onset of

Ive decided to have a go at charting this cycle if AF shows next week so will be signing up to FF and chucking out those opk's !

Im glad Ive started this journal as sometimes you just need to vent and get things off your chest, here you dont upset anyone and more often than not, people can relate.

Heres hoping for my very soon

Loula

wishing you lots of dust, and happy new journal!

yaya

Welcome to the journals Jacqui. Looking forward to following your story. Hope it's short and sweet hun!



Yaya xxx

xxxjacquixxx

Thanks Girls.

So do I Yaya..lol.

So, Ive been out to see my mum with the kids and told her Im feeling really tired and not myself and she thinks maybe I should go for a check up at docs to make sure everything happened as it should have with my m/c 4 weeks ago. Im not convinced its down to that though, as chemical pregnancies are straight forward enough arent they? maybe Im run down...but that doesnt fit either.
Tonight ive felt like theres something going on in my lower abdominal area, like sort of slight twinges and I keep getting a slight sharp pain down the inside of my right leg, also twinges in my back, bbs are feeling hotter than normal and feel heavy and achey inside (if that makes sense)......bet is on her way.

I dont think I am preggo as last month I had soooo many symptoms even before I tested pos at 4 weeks, and even then I was only getting very faint bfp's. Symtoms arent as strong this time, accept for the fatigue, so maybe not this time....ahh well, hurry up and put me out of my misery!

xxxjacquixxx

CD27
BB's still achey, lower back is feeling 'strange'

Well Ive got up this morning feeling not so stressed, which can only be a good thing, and the sun is shining so happy days.

I did a lot of googling last night on how to check your cervix and decided I would give it ago before bed as I figure I have to 'get to know my cervix' if I am to use it beneficially.
Anyways, I think it is quite high as it took all of my two fingers all the way in to reach it (sorry tmi) and I felt the knobbly bit that felt a bit like the end of my nose more towards the left, couldnt feel any openings either. My cm was white and thick too, not loads of it but a little.

Must admit, I felt quite strange doing this..was hoping Oh didnt suddenly walk in...ohh the shame!

Ive dcided Im going to check it every day if I remember and write my findings in here just so I can keep a record of my findings.

Started reading the first installment of the FF course and answered the questions, got 5 out of 5! yippee! Wasnt hard though

Another from the internet cheapie I did this morning, so looks like is getting ready to visit.

Im going to get an appiontment with the doc today about my extreme fatigue as I am quite worried. Will let you know the outcome later when Ive been.

nicola647

sending u some baby Jacqui, Good Luck, and hope your TTC Journey results in a swift very soon.

xxxjacquixxx

CD 28

well with a bit of luck will show her face today.
My body feels weird though, not like I usually feel before af. My bb's are still sore, which isnt normal...they usually hurt for a day or so a week before af is due and then start again the day im due or the day after..my back is aching, which again i dont usually get before af either just after maybe 2 days as my flow gets a little heavier....and Im still very tired.
this morning, not even a trace of a line so I think my bodys playing tricks.
I just want my af now so i can get started on my charting. All this waiting is not good for a girl!

Im going to try and see my doc this morning as Im quite worried about the tiredness, maybe my iron is low or something, either way I need it sorting as I dont feel my best.
Come on show your face and put me out of my misery!!!! please...!!

xxxjacquixxx

cd 29

Supposed to be CD 1 today, but theres still time, lol

Still no and no either. But maybe I am wishful thinking after the chemical pregnancy 4 weeks ago...

My bb's are still achey inside and my nipples are extremely sensitive, been yawning all day too, heaving a little this morning too . Funny twinges in my tummy as Im sitting here so maybe is waking up!

Ive decided to ditch the temping theory as Im waking up oh with my alarm and he has to get up for work at 7. So decided to buy a CBFM and give that ago this next cycle (assuming arrives!)

Did a bit of googling on chemical pregnancies and read that they can sometimes throw ov off a few days making you ov a little later than normal, so maybe Im not due on yet, or I could only be 10/11/12 dpo. Who knows.

Booked a holiday to Costa Brava at the end of september for me, my friend and our 4 kids so feel a bit happier than yesterday

come on or I cant stand all this waiting!!

xxxjacquixxx

CD 30

Hmmm still no damn Aunt Flo!
Boobs incredibly sore this morning whe I got out of bed, took off bra and owwwweeeee had to put it back on quick sharp. Eased off a little throughout the day, but still heavy and achey.

Heaved a couple of times this morning and at one point rushed to the loo because I actually thought I was going to chuck! (sorry tmi)
Gassy still, (both ends)
I had af type cramps last night and I thought maybe she would be here this morning, but still a no show....only bits white cm.

A again this morning. I noticed when I piac (peed in a cup) there were bits of white stringy cm floating in there too..?
I cant understand whats happening to my body....I wish would bloody hurry up and put my poor (. ) ( .) out of their misery.

Went to see the doc, more about my lethargy more than anything as I really dont feel I am pg as surely it would be showing up by now, its 12 days since my body started chucking a funny!
Am off for blood test tomorrow for urea & Eloctrolytes, liver function, glucose, and thyroid. I asked if they would check hcg and she says that they havnt got the technology to do this, only in the hospitals. I would have liked this ruled out if poss.
She also said it could take a few months for my cycle to sort itself out after the chemical pg

So body....WHY ARE YOU ACTING STRANGE?????

What do you think girls??? Could my body just be playing up after chem pg? It was fine for 2 weeks after.

xxxjacquixxx

cd 1 yipeeeee!!!

finally showed her face last night..a week late.

The chemical pg must have messed up my cycle this month and so I missed ov
I did 3 internet cheapy tests yesterday and they all came back with faint positives , then aunt flo turned up....hmmmmm i dont think i will use them again!
Anyway I have my new cbfm at the ready this cycle so better watch out
.

Ive got a good feeling about june.... all round i hope!!!