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Hi magic

Just dropping off come baby dust

yaya

Morning Magic

How are you feeling today hun? Any signs yet?? I'm absolutely symptom-free so am not feeling too positive this month -- one would think that by 8 DPO there should have been some signs if one was indeed pregnant! Oh well. I'm still enjoying my new eating plan though -- it's sooo yummy!! Right now I am thinking about what kind of smoothie I'm going to have mid-morning!! I think it might just be strawberry!!



Yaya xxx

magicvw

Thanks for the dust everyone!

Not feeling overly hopeful today as just checked my cm and it's brown/pink. At 5 dpo this is a new early!

Please, nobody say the "I" word to me as I think it will make me cry!

tansey

I won't mention what others would say as you and I know what this normally means! Because I had no spotting when i got my BFP, i just know that the cycle i don't get it must be the one that's worked. But you have a child - did you have any spotting when when you were pg last time/when you found out? It could be different for you as you could start to spot then the progesterone tabs kick in? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

NikiJJones

Sorry to hear that you are getting that CM thing again, and not feeling hopeful Magic.
Sending and keeping my fingers crossed for you that this month is different.
xxxx

yaya

I'm still hopeful for you Magic. I'm willing a super-magical surprise for you this month!!

Yaya xxx

yaya

Magic - just re-analysed yr chart () and have to say that I am still most hopeful for you -- yr temps are in the main higher than they have been in any other cycle and yr spotting never normally occurs as early as this. I won't mention the 'I' word but I just want to tell you not to get too down yet -- you're still right in the game!!!

Yaya xxx

magicvw

I so wish I knew the answer to that one Tansey! I wasn't paying any attention at all to my cycles when I got pg, so I don't know! I did have some spotting which struck me as weird at the time, and with hindsight I think I can say it was implantation spotting. It was totally different to this though- it was literally two spots of blood in my pants as though I'd used an eye-dropper, they were almost round!

I was so ignorant back then - I didn't know there was anything to keep track of other the the start and end of my period, and I wasn't even keeping track of that at that point! I did my first ever ever hpt a few weeks later as I was getting a bit suspicious about things and got my (still got it! it's in my knicker drawer!) and I was 10 weeks already I can vaguely remember thinking that I was getting my period but then it didn't seem to come, so may be I did get some "normal" spotting.

God I wish there was a Rewind button on life. (Except for those drunken moments of course!)

I'm feeling a lot better now after writing that. Writing in these journals is so therapeutic. I felt heartbroken this morning and have been really snappy. I hate it when I get angry cos I end up shouting at people in Bulgarian but they don't understand me because I mix everything up because I'm stressed and then I just end up feeling worse!

Well, here's the bright side

If I am not pg I can drink on holiday
No point in worrying about anything as that won't help
Will book to see my lovely gyno as soon as we get back and see what happens next

That last one is a bit scary. I know the first question is going to be "why have you left it so long before coming to see me?"

magicvw

THanks Yaya you are so lovely!

The thing is, on my charts it's down as one of my own custom whatsits, cos FF told me not to put it as spotting until it hits panty. They said there is no need to check internally, so not to chart pink cm. I beg to differ, since pink cm obviously is not normal and I want to know what's going on. Last month it was 6dpo, so pretty much the same. Actually, I don't think I checked at 5dpo last month, so it might have been pink then too!

I haven't given up hope. Hell, I usually still believe there's still a chance even when AF is here with full force - you read that many stories about women who never knew they were preggers! Just not quite so hopeful as I was

yaya