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Please don't feel obliged to read this - I am using my journal to sort out a jumble of thoughts in my head and get some worries off my chest.
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Yesterday the lovely Miel posted a bit of a bombshell thread for me:
spotting answers :)
I need to backtrack a bit...
I was on the pill from the age of 19 to 31 (

). From the age of about 23 I started getting random bleeding mid-cycle, sometimes after sex, sometimes for no apparent reason, sometimes spots, sometimes lots. The first time it happened I went straight to the docs and she said I probably had in infection, and she put me on antibiotics for a week. The random bleeding was not all the time - in fact it was so infrequent that I never really worried about it. On several occasions I did make doctor's appointments, but the bleeding had always stopped by the time I was supposed to see the doc, so I didn't bother going
At the age of about 29 while working in Portugal, I had a hug mid-cycle bleed, and was working for a company which had on onsite doc, so I went to see him. He referred me to a gyno, so off I went, and he said I had lesions (?) on my cervix and I should have minor surgery. However, I was due to leave Portugal to go back to the UK within a month, so I put it off. Back in the UK I went to the docs and they said they would have to do their own examination, (as they probably don't trust dodgy foreign diagnoses), but that it was probably nothing to worry about. My AF seemed to settle down and I *forgot* about it again.
I came off BCP at 31 and 10 months later got pg. I didn't know until 10 wks as I had stopped thinking about TTC and wasn't even noting down AF.
When I was pg with no.1 the day after I had my pg confirmed at the docs I started bleeding. It wasn't a great deal of blood and it was the weekend, so I waited till the Monday morning to get it checked out. The doc scanned me and said I was having a threatened miscarriage and told me to pack my bag and go to hospital, and to expect to stay there for a week.
In the hospital they put me on a drug called Duphaston, gave me really bloody nasty injections in my thigh three times and day and made me stay in bed for a week.
The PG went fine after that, thank goodness, but I had to keep on taking the pills until about half way through the second tri.
When LO turned 1, we decided to try for no.2. I don't count my TTC no.2 journey right from then tho, as I was plagued by candida and bladder infections for the first few months, making BD out of the question! However, after the third month of this, I got more random bleeding, so I went back to the docs. He said it could be caused by the candida, but that it could also be my hormones. He put me back on the Duphaston (progesterone). I was supposed to take it from cd14 for 10 days. I that point I had no idea about ovulation, follicular phases, luteal phases and all that stuff, so I thought that was a bit of a random way to take pills!
Anyway, I took them correctly for the first couple of months or so, then *forgot* (can you see a trend here?!!!) and my AF was fine, so I stopped taking them. I don't really like taking pills, especially if I don't think they're really doing anything! AF has behaved herself more or less since then --- or so I thought.
Avid readers of my posts *ahem* might remember my thread on placing bets on whether I was having an implantation bleed last cycle? Well how DUMB am I. After reading Miel's post everything now fits into place - my spotting is undoubtedly caused by my low progesterone



and I could have prevented it if I had just followed my doc's advice.


Last month, when I really started taking control of my TTC rather than just leaving all to chance, I was pondering whether to start taking the progesterone pills again, and I actually decided against it because I found out that they artificially raise your BBT - I wanted to know whether my temps would show I was ovulating or not. Well, they did *kinda* - FF never gave me a solid line!
So after reading Miel's post last night I though - what a complete dumbass am I? I have probably reduced my chances of conceiving for the last 10 months or so by just being a plain old idiot and not taking my pills.
I was ready to gas myself last night - but it's ok girls I have bounced back, I think. I am going to take my progesterone again from this cycle. My gyno said to take them from CD14 which I guess is because it is the average Ov day - so I'm gonna wait till my temps indicate I have ov'd and then take them.
There. I feel better now.
