ok the long and short of it is that i have emetophobia (vomit phobia). it wasnt that bad while i was pregnant with my son, but in the last few years it has got BAD!!! as in OCD etc etc. i really want another child but i am sooooooo scared of morning sickness! its taken 7yrs to build up some confidence to start trying! i have got the ump anyway cause im 11dpo and still i know its prob a bit early but still! and im sitting here feeling a bit sicky!! !!! its soooo annoying !!! i feel so guilty cause i see everyones posts and feel bad cause im sitting here scared of a bit of puke and some of you are going through complete heartbreak!! i just need to shake out of this damn all consuming phobia!! i have tried CBT, hypnosis, light therapy etc etc!! sorry for the rant! i think i just need to get it out of my system now and again!!

oh god!!! sorry sorry sorry!!! can someone move this for me please!! i didnt realise i put this in here!!!!