jolyn

Right then - a new day, a new temp - just gonna ride this cycle out now. Not gonna BD actively to try as we don't know when OV will occur - will wait til I have a new AF and go from there - just hope this cycle doesn't mess me around and comes along quickly. Saying that if I get my usual OV symptoms we may change our minds!!! Just think this cycle may be a different that's all.

We tried last night, but (sorry tmi) it was difficult to enter me, like something hard was in the way so we left it then as the moment was gone! Got a lovely big box of pre seed under the bed, but I won't be wasting it this cycle - can't wait to try it.

When will my bbs stop hurting? It's like a constant reminder at the mo. Off to work in a bit so that should take my mind off things for a bit.

I'm gonna be catching up on everyone's journals later - it's like I've missed a few days of my life and now I have to catch up on everything.

to everyone x

nellis10

Take care of yourself hun....you are in my thoughts!

yaya

Just wanna send you some big .

Love ya
Yaya xxx

jolyn

Okay so just driven into work, but am now taking deep breaths - I don't think I'm gonna see it through the morning without throwing up. Struggling to eat a piece of toast to try and feel better. My head is feeling good today, but my body definately isn't - I hurt! I just read the thread on early pg cm - the milky stuff - I had a lot of that yesterday with the little blobs of dark blood in that I was talking about. I guess you get all the same symptoms even if the PG is not to be.

I'm gonna keep describing what I'm feeling in my journal so that I and others knows how this feels. If I have to go through this again at any point I can refer back and know that it is normal.

Nat - u r like a rock to me - thank you for being here everyday. I don't know if I could have got through this sanely without everyone on this forum xx

nellis10

I am going to ahve to say this and forgive me...but...Are you SURE it's all over? Forget about temps...if you still have sore BBs and are feeling sick...are you SURE it's not just starting rather than finishing? Plus creamy CM could be your plug?

wishing4ababy

Hi hun. I have to agree with nat chick. I have had 4 chemical pregnancies this year alone and none of them sound anything like yours. I honestly wouldn't say this if it wasn't true, but you would not be still having all these symptoms if you weren't pregnant. sore bbs, feeling sick etc - they are all signs that you are indeed pg. How do you feel - disregarding the spotting (which i did with both my pregnancies) and the temps?
also can you explain what the psychic meant by saying you were already 2 months pregnant? did he mean you were already pregnant without knowing?
I truly hope that there is going to be a happy ending to this awful time for you hun. sending you lots of

nicola647

Morning Jo,

sorry to hear u are feeling crap still, i just hope u feel better soon, and can get to the bottom of what is going on.

Thinking of u chick

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jolyn

I feel pg, which is what I told the doc, she said that she didn't think I was emotionally strong enough to cope with not being pg so basically she thought I was imagining things I think. It's just really frustrating as I thought she would try and get to the bottom of things. Like why I would get a line and then no lines.

wishing - it's interesting what u saying that this doesn't sound like a chemical pg, i just don't know what to think this is really, it's not normal otherwise I would have more pos results by now. In regards to the psychic - she said if I wasn't already pg at the time of seeing her, I would be in the next month or 2.

Just made it through my first class at work, feeling very drained and bit funny at the mo. Not feeling sick anymore thank god. I have to ring the docs for the results of the urine test tomorrow so will ask if I could see a different doctor perhaps.

Faerie

I would ask for a different Dr, whether the results are positive or negative they (Drs) shouldn't be making you feel like you're imagining things. As if you don't have enough to think about! Big hugs Jo xxx

wishing4ababy

god I totally agree with Faerie - they shouldn't be making you think you are going mad. They are there to support - not to dismiss you. Thinking about you hun.