I thought it might be an idea to start a journal so here goes!

I'm 28 and my husband is 30. We've been together for 7 1/2 years, married for over 3. I'm Irish and he English and I've been living in the uk now for nearly 7 years. We've decided to move back home to Dublin. I've quit my job as a solicitor and he's quit his job as a police officer, moving back to Dublin next week and starting new careers - no stress at all there!!!

I came off BCP in October 2007 but I only began using opks last month so to be honest, I had no idea what I was doing before that! So i think we've really only been ttc properly for 2 cycles.

I've been using the cbfm this month, still waiting for my first peak. Have to say, I love it, I'm a poas addict so it feeds the addiction very well! I'm really hoping it works this month, I've been so gutted the last couple of months when AF has come, I naively thought that if we bded on the right days then it would definitely happen!!

So as some of you have read, I had my first reflexology session tonight because I've heard really good things about how it clears blockages and relaxes you. Not sure about clearing blockages yet, I'll see how I am over the next few days and if I get my BFP. I definitely wasn't relaxed though, haven't been through that much pain in a long time! Maybe she was a bit harsh, who knows. Lets face it, if I'm moving to Ireland next week I'll have to find someone else for next month anyway!

It's funny, when I came off BCP I thought we'd just let nature take it's course and see what happened. it's funny how all of a sudden you become obsessed, it sort of crept up on me. Sensibly, I know this isn't the best time to ttc with us moving and everything but I just really want it to happen now.

So I'm keeping my fingers crossed for this month, waiting for my first cbfm peak and hoping the world's most painful reflexology does the trick!

Hi Lu

Welcome to the journals! I look forward to reading about your experiences hun. Just wanted to send u a mega dose of for your journal.

yaya xxx

Hi Honey

Hopefully this will be our month
Fingers crossed the reflexology goes well and you get your ASAP!

Lots of for you

Thanks guys!

Was so excited today when I got my first peak on the cbfm!!! Unfortunately DH has hurt his back so we'll be limited as far as positions go but we'll just have to make do I think, we can't miss our window and I suppose it would be mean to break him

Won't have much time either, my last day in the job is Friday so going out for dinner with work people tonight, I'll just have to pounce on him when I get in!

No ewcm yet either but bding anyway and hoping for the best!!

Good luck Lu & yay for the peak on your monitor!! Keep us posted hun.

yaya xxx

Have fun and try not to breah you DH! Would be a shame to put him out of action!!

and LOTS of

My excitement came to a grinding halt earlier when I found out that one of my clients had committed suicide (I'm a family lawyer). can't help thinking there's something I could have done to make the process easier on him, I should have picked up on the signs etc etc. But even his family were surprised, he didn't seem like a high risk person. So a bit preoccupied to say the least!

I'm concentrating on picking myself back up now though and getting back on track for tonight's activities!

That's pants sweetie, but you cannot blame yourself

for you Lu, i've had experience with suicide waaaay to close to my own heart for comfort so i know how hard it is on those left behind.

Keep your chin up and remember the positive things, like BDing and moving to beautiful Ireland hun

Hi and welcome to journaling. I wanted to drop off some for you and wish you luck this cycle. Even with your broken man. Poor guy.
Sorry to hear about your client. Some things there's just no way of knowing, please don't take it so hard because it's not your fault. I hope things are looking up for you again very soon.
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