Hi Girls
Thank you all so much for your lovely messages.
You are all such wonderful girls; each & every one of you deserves all yr dreams to come true.
I am doing very well! I have found that taking a break from this site was absolutely right for me because in truth I was becoming unhealthy about ttc. Unfortunately I do have an obsessive tendency and had to cool it for my own sake and the sake of my relationship.
Since my 'break' I have stopped obsessively brooding over my chart and some days have to try and remember what cd I am on! I have also been going for Body Stress Release which has worked wonders for me. I now realise that a lot of the 'symptoms' (e.g. cramps, groin pain) I thought were all cycle related were the result of built up bodily tension in my back etc. I have also made a major change in my diet and am eating mostly raw foods and veggie juices. I feel great!
I am no longer 'trying' to conceive! I am just waiting and hoping for a little miracle one day. I might stop taking temps next month, I might not. To be honest it's not the temping in and of itself that was stressing me -- it was the constant thinking, planning, comparing, symptom spotting! I have decided to let it all just go and am feeling a lot happier.
We didn't make love (notice no more baby dancing lol!!) at the 'right' time this month so I have no chance this month. I am not bothered at all. I am just trying to let go and enjoy each day of my life to the full.
This is the right path for me -- I am trying to spend less time in 'cyberspace' and more time in real time 'cosyspace' at the moment. Love you all though and thanks to all of you for yr support and kindness.
I will pop on occassionally to check up on you girls but my 'trying' to conceive days are over! Hopefully we will be reunited in pregnancy land some day soon!
Love and
to you all
Yaya xxx
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