Hey ladies,
CD18 and still no sign of O and I'm wondering if it's come and gone?
Did an OPK last night and didn't even get the faintest line
Didn't BD last night either which made me a bit sad and DF noticed it and we had a long discussion about the fact me looking pensive and quiet isn't the greatest turn on for him and I said that he'd asked me not to pester so I wasn't etc ... we didn't argue, just didn't get anywhere near BD
DF wants me to take a step back from all the TTC stuff and stop stressing myself out, I guess he is right, it doesn't help that I'm feeling really bloated at the moment and have a face full of spots, feel totally unattractive and when I do make an effort to have a nice shower, put on a nice nightie etc I get nothing but cuddles, he is trying to be nice and 'support' me while I'm feeling down, but what I actually want is to feel desired and sexy ..........
I'm down because my horse just died, I cannot afford a new one, I live miles from 'home' and nice outdoor walking areas, my job, while not being bad isn't exactly 'exciting' and all I really want is to be a mum, which God apparently doesn't want to help me with at this current moment.
Sorry dull boring depressed post from me today ... I think we missed O, I'm fed up .. but hey ho ... there is always next month *insert a touch of irony here*