Urgh, whats wrong with meee???

OH had texted to say he's going to a football match this afternoon (Scottish cup semi-final or something, I dunno...) And I've burst into tears. Wtf???

Ok, so I'd planned on going a drive with him this afternoon, but now I can't. It's hardly anything to cry about though. I never cry! Sigh.

Haven't checked anything on the TTC front yet. I'm being lazy today and am only just about to go for a shower. Will check CM later on.

Oh, and 'm going to count today as 1DPO. I'm fairly certain I O'd 2 days ago, though I still had a little bit (though less) of EWCM yesterday, hence not counting yesterday as day 1. I'm also figuring my 2ww will be more like 5. Or maybe more. Who knows? Damn pill.

Oh honey......I wanted to give you a big

Thank you NeyNey

I'm feeling slighty better now. Had a chat with OH and he was all 'Have I done anything wrong? I hate it when you're not feeling right.' And generally being super sweet which cheered me up a bit

Right, so today is 20/4/08, CD17, 1DPO. Checked CM and it's back to the creamy whitish stage again. There's loads of it though (tmi!!). I'm doubting I'm going to get my BFP this month, as, not only is it my first month off the pill, but we didn't BD nearly as much as I would have liked to around ovulation (just once! Argh!) so I reckon I'm out. Just a case of waiting til the decides to show up! Also, my tender nipples are now back to normal, my weird stomach cramps are gone, and I feel absolutely fine, aside from being grumpy and over emotional!

I'll no doubt still test in a couple of weeks, as I'm a POAS addict already

My stomach's making funny noises.

You know when it rumbles if you're hungry, you can feel the rumbles and you know you're hungry? It's not like that. I can't feel it rumbling, and it just sounds like there's a frog in my tummy, croaking away happily.

OH is on his way back from the football now. His team won, so he'll be happy at least! I'm going to attack him with a massive hug. I feel in need of some cuddles today Nearly burst into tears again earlier when I was telling my Mum that OH was at the football

Haha, I just realised I moan alot. Ah well, at least all the moaning is tucked away in one place, which can be ignored if I'm going on too much!

21/4/08, CD18, 2DPO:

I wish it wasn't inappropriate to take pics of ones bbs. Then you could all tell me you see the veins, too Yup. They're back again. No doubt just for one or two days again, but, we'll see!

Emotionally, I'm feeling a bit better today. OH is slightly worried though, as apparently I'm being 'too quiet' for his liking.

Also convinced I had very slight spotting this morning. Well, just a tiny bit when I wiped, which would probably have gone unnoticed if I hadn't become such a TP inspector

22/4/08 CD19, 3DPO:

Yesterday was weird on the CM front. It was white and creamy in the morning. Then when I wiped in the afternoon, it was verrryy stretchy and EW. Then in the evening (TMI WARNING!!!) I went to the loo and found a little 'ball' of something in my pants. Inspected it, and it was very thick CM. Held its shape. So I checked myself again, and I had lots and lots of thick whitish CM.

Couldn't believe I actually found a ball of it in my knickers (and apologies for the TMI, but I warned you!!)

I'm still conviced my bbs are veiny, too. And my stomach has been feeling weird. Right up the top, at both sides. Cant even describe the sensation. Getting mild cramping on and off too. I figure it's m ovaries doing a little dance, saying 'whoooo, we got to release an egg this month!!'

I've also been really really thirsty lately too. And still having random dreams. On that note, Im off to get a drink. My mouth is so dry...

Yet another person just announced they're pregnant My cousin's friend this time. Sigh.

Anyway...

Loads of CM today. Like, mega amounts. (white and creamy) Also strange feelings in my stomach again, sore back, really gassy , and have the hiccups! lol.

Ok, so hiccups probably doesn't class as any sort of symptom, but I rarely get them and they're doing my head in (though they seem to have stopped at the moment. Hmmmmm)

Mostly just on here to rant about someone else being preggers. Ah well.

23/4/08 CD20, 4DPO:

Talk about CM! I don't think I've ever had this much, ever. Hmmm... I'm thinking pantyliners are a good idea.

Still getting an odd feeling in my side, random cramps, and a sore back. I've also convinced myself my areolae are more visible (based on the fact that I actually *have* them now. They were never visible at all before) Though I could be imagining it. Who knows...

Lol. Well firstly CM increase is a good thing. I hope it hangs around and doesn't dry up, because that could bring good news!!

Yup. Fingers crossed.

I'm still convinced this is not gonna be my month. Have had no BD since, ooh, daysss ago. And I'm pretty convinced all my little aches and 'symptoms' are imaginary, or a result of coming off the pill.

Though, I'll continue to convince myself otherwise til the rears her ugly head!