Thank you to everyone who posted such lovely replies after my self-indulgent rant on Tuesday - much appreciated. I do feel a bit better now - I have realised that things could be a lot worse, and I need to get a bloody grip of myself!
However, I'm almost certain that I won't be getting my BFP this month. I'm on CD20, and no symptoms to report whatsoever. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing though - last month I had symptoms coming out of my a$$, and the

still showed up right on time
Last month we had sex 5 days before ovulation until 2 days after roughly. This month, however, I think we only had sex twice during my fertile period - which I can't even be certain that I had because I'm not temping or using OPK's anymore.
So yes, pretty damn sure that AF will arrive when she is due - a week tomorrow. Sigh.
Also, found out that 2 women in Rob's side of the family are pregnant - his sister-in-law, and his neice (who is actually the same age as him, which I find really werid). And they're going to be giving birth about a month apart

Not fair.
Ah well, at least I'll be able to offer my services as babysitter - I don't know anyone else with a baby, so I have no way of releasing all of my pent-up baby cuddles at the moment

to everyone.
xxxx
Ooooh, p.s. Rob has a doctors appt today. He is going to start the ball rolling about getting his semen analysis done. I'll update with the outcome later on tonight.