Oh well I thought I'd better start a journal (after some good advice from Kaelia) and at least hopefully ill be able to look back after I get a bfp (if I get ever get a bfp) and think what I went through!

So I guess Ive been ttc for 10 months now and no success as you may have gussed as yet. We got married nearly two years ago now and to be honest had been talking about having a baby back then but we always just wanted to wait until we'd got the wedding out of the way and were more settled etc. So low and behold back last summer, we'd just come back from our holiday in June and my hubby says to me in the car on the way home from his folks, totally out of the blue, "Why don't we start trying now? Come on, lets stop taking the pill and see what happens", well I was soooo over the moon but little did I know back then it's not always as easy as it sounds!!
So here I am 10 months down the line and still trying. Was on the pill for 10 years I think so I guessed it might not happen straight away but was just disappointed as its taken so much longer than I thought. I remember thining well itll prob happen by xmas and then xmas came and went and no and then easter came and went and no good news and my last little mile stone in my head, was my hubby's mates are getting marrued in August and originally id thought id be going with a baby in my arms and no such luck but I really hope im preg by then but you cant helo it you just start to lose hope I guess.

Its sooo hard as I know you shouldn't compare yourself with friends etc but they all caught so quickly, so I do tend to think a lot of the time, whats the matter with me then???

So anyways have been a bit lax about ttc this month, forgot to take temps, forgot my folic acid and vits, then forgot to pee on my opk this morning so am holding my poor bladder as we speak until I get home from work and can test on an opk as im sure im due to peak next day or so.

So to date, am on Cycle Day 21 today of either 34,37 or38 day cycle, who knows!! Fingers crossed can get my peak next couple of days and will then be in 2ww at long laaaaaast!

Yay, I'm sooo pleased you have started your own diary on here! I found it help's loads. Somewhere to rant if you like as well as keep track of thing's!
Good luck on your journey fran hun
Here a Mahooosive sprinkle of dust to help you on your way!


xxx

Oh forgot to reply, i have no idea what most of the test's are for. But this is what he is testing for.
TSH, FSH, Day21 bloods, Progesterone,FBC, Renal, Liver, Sugar.
I know the obvious ones but i'm guessing to check if i OV or not with some of them. I will try and search them later

yay - you started a journal. I find mine helps. I was quite miserable when I started it but it actually helps me to lighten up. It's also nice to read other peoples and see what they are going through too.
Loads of luck hun xx

Good luck and sending you bunches of

I'm sending lots of Have you went and had blood work done to check everything out, I would do that.

hey Franj, good to see you've started a journal, I also find it helpful and its good to see what everyone else is up to as well. We've been ttc for 10 cycles now as well so I know where you are coming from. I should be more patient though cos my hubby works away a lot so we miss some months, but its still the same length of time waiting!!! Its tough not to put milestones on things but I think you have to let it go. You'll get your bean when the time's right for you and your baby - well that's what I tell myself anyway and it helps keep me sane at least some of the time!!

Anyhoo, I'll shut up now cos I'm wittering, but hope you enjoy the journal and its not too long!!!

thanks everyone for reading my journal so far.you're all right,it is quite theraputic writing down my feelings,so here goes another off load...girls what monster have you created here?!!!!

Have had such an emotional weekend so far,me and my nhubby have had the most awful confrontation with his family,which to be honest has been building up for a couple of years and have now finally plucked up the courage to vent our thoughts and its caused massive drama.

Feel so awful,almost relieved cos we've finally done it but guilty and upset with how things are now and to top it off I have to work with his dad ever day so HAPPY DAYS!!!!

Then to add to it all I woke this morning and peed on my opk to then go into complete panic cos I thought I'd wasted my precious flu on a dud opk but it was ok I'd just put it in the divi test holder the wrong way and got my smiley face!!!yipee!!! So before all the upset started again today we bed anyways as otherwise I have to wait another 5 or6 weeks cos of my cycle is that terribly selfish of me?????
so anyways family issues aside we are trying to relax this evening and I think I must def be ovulating or about to so the opk was right as I have thosefeelings again down on my left hand side.

Toot in answer to yourquestion,I've not had any tests done as had been trying to get as close to a year of trying before I went to see doc so we are going to give it a go maybe this month and next month and then it will be nearly a year so think I've given it fair game I think.well doc can't say I haven't tried anyway.

Think need to apologize as this hasn't been much of a fun journal so far,all I've done is moan.NOTE TO SELF:must be more funny in a couple of days!I've moaned so much that even my dog has turned away from me and gone to sleep!!! I have to admit though I do feel better so rant officially over for today. today.thanks for listening everyone ,I'm off to seduce my husband as am determined to get some more sex in before the night is over,do you think I'll get away with staying in my pyjamas and fluffy socks or willie have to make an effort and get changed??he is playing nintendo w.I.I so think its going to require effort!!
will let you know how I get on...wish me luck xxx

HI Fran I wondered if you were ok as you haven't been on. It's good for you to rant in your journal - how awful for you though, families hey!
hope your suduction goes well!

Hey, good luck Fran - go get that sperm!

Well im back after that eventful weekend of horrible arguments and rows with Oh's family. Still not talking to them, had the most awful argument as i said the other day with my mother in law on Saturday so me and hubby have had pretty cr*p time of it to be honest but there we go.

Did manage to get some more in so am really glad about that as really want a and think after the last couple of days weve had, we really deserve it. So fingers crossed now. Come on BFP show your face, please!!

We've really tried to not let the family probs etc come between us and we've tried to stay strong but its so difficult ttc at the same time as all this stuff going on as it's made us both stressed out and when youre stressed out the last thing you feel like doing is getting it on eh? But at least we've put the effort in this month despite all that and hopefully it will pay off.

So am officially in the 2ww now. Had pamper morning saturday, went and had massage and facial (mainly cos i had to get out the house to avoid the in-laws not cos I really wanted a pamper morning as cant really blinking afford it!!) but it was worth it, de stressed for me for an hour or so anyways.

Back on my healthy fad today too as have been really lax about eating right and exercising although despite the number of easter eggs I consumed (cant admit to the figure on here, not even in my journal, I know) and all the take- aways Ive had of late, I have kept the pounds off I shed back over a month ago, unbelieveable!! But still need to lose more and just want to feel fresher and more ebergised as have felt so sluggish lately, so woke up this morning , actually remembered to take my vits and folic acid and have eaten really healthy all day so I HAVE to keep it up again now.

Went to see my best friend who'd had baby 6 months ago and was really nice to see her and the baby and have a lovely cuddle etc and come away not feeling depressed for once, but content that shes happy and my time will come as thats what im telling myself. Ive just realised this last few days, with all the arguments with my OH's family, how much my own family have been there for me and supported me etc, also that if me and him can come through this together, we should be able to face anything I guess, so im thinking myself lucky at the mo and hoping for the best.

So got through first day back in work and my father in law didnt come in today, thiank god so at least ive not been stressed about having to see him today. Just counting down the minutes til I finish work and cant wait to go home. Think although I am on the health kick I may have to have a glass or two of wine tonight just to chill myslef out although I wont get in case theres a little bean in me!

Well Im off to go home now and enjoy my wine x