Thanks everyone for all your lovely words, this journal malarky is great makes me feel so much better about myself!
Well I was convinced yesterday that

was going to show although im convinced shes not really due until Saturday. Had all the crampy sort of feelings last night in bed and a really bad back but she didint show. Did hpt this morning and

again. I just cant help myself especially because I know there's sooo many of my tests left over! I am a nightmare. At least im doing hpt's every couple of days this cycle as opposed to every day three or four times a day like my last cycles, so my addiction must be improving somewhat!!!

Not sure if she's gonna show today anyways but just in case got some spare knickers and some sanitary towells armed in my bag ready to go , hope i wont need them though but as usual the closer it gets to the day

is due and the more

that I get, the more I start to feel pessimistic about my chances.
So didnt get answer on our new house yesterday in end but they are ringing us this morning to tell us what they can offer so I am keeping my fingers crossed, really really want this. Even if they say they can do the deal, we still have to then sell our house first but its aimed at selling at low price in order to get rid in 4 weeks so we can then have new house in about 4-6 weeks. So we still even then wont be able to get our hopes up, but itll mean we are that much closer to getting what we want. Why oh why couldnt they just do part exchange I dont know! Nevermind.
Well enjoyed my night of tele last night, took my mid off the anticipation of house and

and I wont be testing again til saturday now if

she doesnt show.
Got OH's friends coming over tonight with their newborn baby, only seen the baby once since he was born, so really looking forward to it actually. I just know that as soon as they are gone Ill be like OOOOOHHH I want one!!!!!!!
So come on if your listening mother nature, do your job please!
P.S Got headache from hell this morning and that is usually the last symptom I get (along with the back ache and cramps) before I come on. Please oh please dont let that happen! x