Well im thinking im not preg guys but body's still tricking me to be honest.
Went home in a sulk yesterday and didint do any of the house work I was meant to do , instead got in my pj's and went to bed til OH came home.
If someone wants to come view my house they are not going to want to buy it cos its a complete tip and needs cleaning. Im just not in the frame of mind at the mo, but cos it is a pig sty at the mo, makes me feel depressed sitting in it, always feel better when ive had a clean so will try give it a go tonight.
As for ttc news... Well went home, OH got me some Tesco hpt's but then when he brought them home you cant use them til day af's due so then had a
cos I couldnt use them. OH , bless him went back to shop and got me 2 First responses. Wasnt going to use them til this morning but then as usual, caved in and did one last night and obv was negative.
What did I expect??
Anyway have decided I won't test now until after im due. If I dont come on saturday, maybe ill do one sunday morning. We'll see.
Just can't understand my boobs at the mo. They feel so sore and tight if that makes sense. They do get a bit bigger and my nips a bit sensitive now and again around witch time but they feel different to that right now. Even in the shower last night they were sore when I was washing and im conscious of them all the time at the mo. Still getting twinges down low and off and on crampy sort of feelings right in the centre down low. So these feelings are confusing me and making me think am I ??? Hate doing this to myself though as I only end up disappointed.
Im either 11 or 12 D.p.o today so surely that would show a + on a hpt by now??
Think was just secretly hoping this month would have been my month due to the fact that me and Oh have now been to docs and got the all clear so far (except for ultrasound for me) and plus been having my reflexology and just hoping we would have caught before worrying about our fertility clinic referrals and all that jazz, you know what I mean?
Just had to run to loo then as felt like id come on but nothing yet. Im sure she's imminent. Have had lower back ache off and on the last 2 or 3 weeks now, usually just get it around ov time and when af is due.
Feel terrible as my friend texted me yesterday to ask if i fancied meeting up for lunch saturday and i havent replied yet as i hate, im due on saturday and for starters if i do come on, which im sure i will, ill feel like crap physically as will be really heavy and bloated and aching etc and just in cutching up in my pjs mode, plus to top it off Ill feel upset and disappointed at the same time for not being preg. Dont want it to take ove rmy life at all by all means, but sometimes whether you intend to or not, it does, cos it just gets to the point every month around witch time, even trying not to get upset doesnt really help, i juist am going to be distraught and cant help it. Poor OH, just fell sorry for him really having to put up with me all the time. He's sooooo good.
Ah well off to have some lunch for five , back after .
for days or weeks, you'vre read it all on here you know it can make you wait! Try and be a good girl and wait until you are late for your own (and OHs) sanity!
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