well....i thought i had better start a journal as it appears it is going to be a long and challenging journey.
We have been ttc since december. I already have a so (2) and a daughter (1) and we both agreed in december that we wanted a third and final baby to complete our family. in Jan we got our first BFP - we could not believe it. I was in shock but i had known since ov that we had done it. Can't put my finger on it but "I knew". 4 days after my first BFP i started bleeding and it was confirmed that i had had an early mc. Doc said it was totally normal and that "lots of women have them - they just don't realise as they think it is a period". that doesn't help at all.
feb was a wierd cycle (and my daughter was in hospital really poorly for a week!) after that so march was our first month ttc. We only managed to BD once as DH was poorly - but the one night was the night before i OV'd so i was quite hopeful. About 2DPO i started cramping, trapped wind, constipated, and my boobs were so sore. I tested BFP on DPO10. Tested again BFP on 11DPO and did CB Digi which said not pregnant. Carried on testing, but boobs were getting progressively better and even though i was still getting BFP's they were getting progressively weaker. Had bloods done and they were negative. Did another BFP on DPO15 and AF showed up on CD32. GP said it must be another early mc.
so.....not feeling very positive today..need to have a word with myself and move on from it and concentrate on this cycle. I keep thinking that it is something I am doing wrong. but after searching the internet endelessly to try and find some answers i can't.
I am going to go to my GP tomorrow and he is going to refer me to a Gynae doc so that we can try and find out what is happening. he said it could be that my body is just not up to being pregnant again after having my 2 babies so close together.
hopefully tomorrow i will feel a little more positive....going to buy thermometre tomorrow and start temping and charting.
NOTE TO SELF - STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF.

Hiya chick.
I'm so sorry that it has not worked out for you this month. Thing's were looking so good too
Finger's crossed next month will be your month!!
I'm so glad you are seeing a gp this week, that's me and you both hun. I'm off to see mine on tuesday!
Some baby dust for your journal

xxx

ah thanks hun - here's some right back for you:



I am hoping that at least i will know what is going on once i have seen my GP. i hope your GP does everything you want him to too hun. A close friend of mine said her Gp said he would do nothing until after she had been TTC for 18 months. They are such pigs - i told her to lie and say she had been trying for that long.

I hope things pick up for you hun, sounds like you have had a really horrid time (sorry complete understatement I know). I find my journal really helpful, hope you do to. Some and for your journey.

Hey just wanted to pop in and wish you luck on your journey and give you a little sprinkle of

Feeling really down today. DH is in a foul mood and i can;t get in to see my GP until tomorrow.
Bleeding is horrendous at the moment and my section scar is really aching.
hopefully tomorrow i will be feeling a little bit more positive about stuff. At the moment i just don't want to even think about TTC - perhaps it is just my hormones playing tricks on me.

hiya welcome to the addictive world of keeping a journal.

i wish you loads of luck in ttc and hope that you get your BFP soon

x

spoke to my GP today and he is referring me to a Gynae specialist to find out what is going on. I know that i should be feeling more positive now that he is getting this done - but instead i am terrified that they are going to tell me that there is no chance of me having another baby.
DH is staying positive (glad one of us is) and saying that it'll happen but i am 34 in a few months and feel as though my clock is ticking.
GP confirmed that there was a pregnancy last month but it was a failed one - which just makes me feel even worse. I hate it when they use that word - failed. It is so awful.
hopefully tomorrow i will be feeling a little more positive. He is ringing me later with a date for an appointment so fingers crossed i don;t have to play the waiting game for too long. not sure what they will do but i guess i am back to having people prodding about and taking blood and everything else. They classed me as "unexplained unfertility" last time which was lovely plastered all over my notes..........grrrrrr.

Firstly Hi im Nic
just wanted to say thats grea news that your going to see someone, to help you in your TTC Journey

Good Luck in your appointment hun, i hope u get lots of answers from it.

Try and stay positive (i know its hard )

im in my 9th month now of TTC. i have only been PG once, when i was 19 and that ended in MC at 10wks .... im 25 now.... and have no children.... so i guess one way you could look at it, is that, atleast you know your body Can fall pregnant... just get those answers as to why you have been miscarrying, and wishing you lot and lots of sticky glue for your future pregnancies and lots of
Good luck for a nice April

xx

Aww hun, it's not too late you know. I was 34 when i had my daughter, she is now 6 I shall be 41 in 2 month's and everything is still working i think
Try not to worry about it. I think 34 is a great age

I hope all goes well at your app. My fingers will be tightly crossed for you chick.
I alway's worry about testing early as early mc are very common and usually happen around the time you af is due. I try and hold out until testing day if possible. Save's alot of heartache
I'm convinced i mc'd 3 month's ago but never tested early so i guess i will never know for sure. I had lot's of clotting and cramping, i never have clots so it was abit strange. I caved last month and tested abit early but as usual bfn's!
Chin up hun, i'm sure it will happen for you soon, and the next one will be a sticky one!!

I am hoping to get my gp appointment this afternoon (silly surgery policy)
Good luck, i hope things happen for you soon. You so deserve it!!!
xxx