tansey

I love coco pops too! The weather is rubbish and depressing isn't it! Hope you have a nice time out with the girls and i hope you have avoided eggy! xx

wishing4ababy

morning ladies. Well weekend proved to be a bit of a wash out. DS was really poorly on Saturday and then i got it saturday night and was ill all day Sunday! just throwing up and on the loo (sorry for TMI girls) - felt like I had a really bad hangover which i didn't!!! so i got nothing done!! i have a stack of ironing and washing to do now tonight which I am not looking forward to!!
so I think I ov'd over the weekend and i have to make my appointment for the hospital today as i got my letter asking me to ring up on Saturday morning! OH has said that once we have been that he really wants to start trying again and i have to say that I am a bit relieved that he wants to. I think i just needed to give my body a bit of a rest - so I will be back as they say!! it felt really unnatural this month "not" doing anything at the right time - although we did do it the night before i started getting ov pains think we will be ok though! it has been condoms ever since which we both hate so there hasn't been much bedroom antics - and me throwing up was a really good contraceptive!!!
anyway once we have been to docs at hospital our plan is to temp, use opk's and it is mission make a sticky bean before christmas. Unless hospital say otherwise of course. Looking forward to it and am feeling really positive about it all which I have to say feels really good after so long feeling negative. Think the BFP's from SwissMIss and POrkPie and NeyNey have spurred me on!!

yaya

Yay!! So glad to hear that you are feeling more positive and that you are planning on trying again soon!



Yaya xx

tansey

sorry you were so ill over the weekend! Let us know about yur appointment! xx

wishing4ababy

i just rang up the hospital to make my appointment and I got the snottiest receptionist EVER, who said she couldn't find my details on her system and so I needed to speak to the call centre (since when have hospitals had call centres - wtf) - I gave her the reference number thing that was on my letter and she said that was an incorrect ref. So she put me back through to this call centre where a MAN told me that he had reviewed my problems and that it wasn't an emergency and that I had been put on the waiting list and i would haev to wait approx 6/7 months for an appointment! I went mental with him and asked what qualifications he had to make that judgement
he said that there was certain criteria that a patient had to reach before they could be deemed elligible for this! oh my god - I blew my top to the point where he was trying to speak but I was becoming super sonic - my voice was reaching scarey heights! anyway, I rang my GP and told him what was happening and he has now over ruled it. BUT i still have to wait for the referral to go BACk to the hospital again with strict instructions for someone to make me an appointment without having some spotty kid who knows nothing assume that there is nothing wrong.
I am quite sure i was horrilbe to him and am feeling really guilty now - but come on!! GIVE A GIRL A BREAK!!!!

wishing4ababy

PS - seriously contemplating at the moment just thinking "balls to it" and carrying on ttc anyway. The doctors and so called specialists will have my 55 and incapable of having a baby at this rate.

TT's

Awww...hope your ok honey at least your doc's on your side!

You sounded really positive in your other post as well, mean man!

Snowdrop

Hi hun,

So sorry the hospital are being a complete pain, good news that your doc is understanding and sorting it out.

I'm really, really, really pleased you're sounding so positive and thinking of trying again

sjnams

Hi hun sorry to hear the hospital was being difficult......can't believe they have a call centre!!! Hopefully the referral wont take too long to come through!!
I am glad to hear though, that you are feeling more positive and look forward to seeing you back and TTC instead of trying to avoid the egg!! LOL

wishing4ababy

Morning girls. Hope everyone is ok. I am so happy with SwissMiss's news - and Wobbles too! there seems to be a BFP wind blowing!! i like it!
i went to docs yesterday about something else and he asked me about stuff - had a very long and teary emotional chat with him. He has told me that 1. my progesterone levels are fine 2. they tested me for some tumor thing (cna't remember the proper name for it, I just heard Tumor and freaked if i remember rightly) and that was all clear......there are no cysts or anything present so basically there is no reason why we can't carry on trying. He said he understands that I am a bit wary but he said the following (which people have said to me a million times and I haven't listened but because i am slightly calmer and not ttc at the moment I listened and absorbed the information rather than assuming i knew better!

"the thing is, if you hadnt tested early you would haev been none the wiser and would have assumed it was your period starting. How do you know that this hasn't happened to you a million times before?"

now i know that sounds a little harsh but it is so true. I would've assumed it was a period if i hadn't tested early. When we were trying for DS I NEVER tested early EVER. I always waited for AF to be late - and usually she would show up the day that i had thought about testing anyway. When i finally got my I was 6 weeks pregnant because i tested at 1 week late and it was BFN - 1 week later BFP!! Everything made sense that he was saying - and it isn't anything that nobody else has said to me. the need to know is so compelling - but why? i need to know when my lil bean has stuck - not when it is still going through all kinds of processes that it has to go through and i get all excited and then am brought back down to earth with a great big bang.
spoke to OH last night about it all and just poured it all out - how I was obsessed with POAS - how i sometimes POAS just days after OV and then every single day until i got a line - and then i would go rushing up to docs to get them to confirm it etc. He sat and listened and said that I needed to chill out about everything and STOP POAS. Which I already know and he ahs said it a million times - to wait until I was a couple of days late before I tested but I just didn't listen.
anyway guys the upshot of it is that we are going to carry on TTC. I have shook it all off and this is a new Wishing4ababy that you are now going to see from here on in. I will NOT BE POAS until AF is at least 5 days late (OH wanted 7 but we compromised!), no charting no obsessing - will just use OPK's to make sure we are doing it at the right time. feeling a little apprehensive about it all - but i am determined to do it right for me. I know that we have laughed a million times about POAS early - but please girls if i even mention it send me a great big cyber SLAP down the internet!!!
so I am back!!! so now just waiting for af to show so I can start a brand new cycle!!