Snowdrop

Hope you're OK hun. Gonna really miss you. Wishing you loads of love, luck and happiness.

Thank you for all your support.

Kerryanne

Hope your ok

Wishing you the best.

nellis10

I'm just so very sorry hun.

wishing4ababy

Hi girls. I just wanted to pop in and thank you all for all your lovely messages.
I am ok really - I am confused and desperately trying to find an answer as to why this has happened again. is it something i have done....not done? probably not. Probably just not meant to be....
It is like therapy coming on here knowing that you are all there - not judging, not wanting to know "why" and simply caring. OH is being fantastic but I know that he is looking at me in a different way now that he knows I will never carry another one of his lo's. I wish I knew why, wish I could go back in time and do whatever it is that I should have done differently, but I can't. I have to move on and accept things for the way that they are. I will get there in the end I guess.
I wish you all all the luck in the world for your TTC journey I really do. You all deserve your LO's so much. Take care of each other - and i hope to see you all posting in the 1st Tri very soon. I will ofcourse be coming back on from time to time to see how you are all getting on.....I am still addicted to you all even if i am not ttc.
hopelessly wishing....
xxx

jacky24

Again hun i am so sorry, please do come and visit us from time to time, i mean we need mommy advice too you know, we don't just need you for TTC...

Please take good care of yourself hun, and you are in our thoughts and prayers every day

nellis10

Hun this may not be what you want to hear but I'll say it anyway.

You've carried 2 babies so far to birth and thus there is no problem with you being able to 1) Conceive and 2) Carry to Term.

However, it may be that you are prone for whatever reason (and I hope this gets determined for you by the docs) to multipple M/Cs. Are you looking with your doctor to the reason for your many early M/Cs? It may be something like a low progesterone level, that your Corpus Luteum isn't giving enough for long enough, before the bean is able to carry on itself?

Please don't think of having to give up, rather, just let nature naturally take it's course, see what the docs say, and keep trying without trying (if that makes sense?)

I really hope you come back with a and you are 8 weeks gone and everything is looking rosey for you!

TT's

Dear God this is awful.

I've been off work ill for two days and I haven't had access to a computer so I have just come on and read this.

Wishing I know this is no consolation what so ever but I am so very sorry for whats happened, you don't deserve this at all and life is so bloody unfair


I feel a bit helpless cause there is really nothing at all I can do for you, but my thoughts and prayers are with you and I'm here if you need to talk

I''m sorry this has happened

TT's

xxx

Kerryanne

I agree with Nat, in what she's saying.



I really do hope your ok, i don't think your OH is looking at you different

wishing4ababy

thanks hun. I know that that would be the route to take if I didn't already have 2 beautiful babies. Doc said my progesterone was "sensible" at 38 so that isn't the problem. Nobody knows- i asked him if it was as a result of my sections to which he said no. I just don't think that i can do this any more hun. I desperately want another baby but this constant heart break is just too much to take.
I had pretty text book pregnancies with my 2 Lo's so keep thinking that something has happened to me since then. I am relatively healthy - go to the gym 3/4 times a week, don't drink excessively! I need to find an answer but i guess i'm not going to. I don't want to dwell on it - i do want to move on and i even feel guilty for feeling like that.
I'm sorry for waffling on hun - but i understand where you are coming from....i just can't do it anymore. It would be amazing to wake up one morning and think "hmmm i should've come on by now maybe i should test" - and be so far on i didn't have time to worry or anything....but we all know the way ttc gets you. I need to have some time, relax, let my body get back to some kind of normality and see where we go from there. GP has offered to refer me to a specialist who deals with mulitiple mc - but, and this really made me angry this morning - he said, because there was no heart beat detected ever, it is difficult to know at what stage it stopped being viable. i don't know what to do - i just know I need to deal with what has been going on with me for the past 6 months and try and get back to "me" again. I have thrown out all my thermometres, opk's, hpt's, the lot. it is something that i cannot do despite desperately wanting to.

wishing4ababy

thanks hun. really hope you get your sticky bean soon.

xxx