bird24

Sorry Jacky - i feel so bad feeling sorry for myself after everything you have been through and your still here....well done chick you must be so strong!!

you are a much better person than me, falling down at the first sign of it getting hard

OH stupid X just keeps going on and on about their little boy and wanting more money and stuff, she already gets enough....i bend over backwards to arrange my life around OH and his LO, just wish i could be blessed with my own LO soon xxxxx

Thanks chick xxx

jacky24

Hey we will be blessed with TWINS and then you can rub it in OH x FACE

Don't worry as we all get our down days, and no matter what either me or anybody else has been thru every single person is as impotant as the next, i might have had a sad day yesterday, you are having a sad one today. Now im here for you Today

Take it easy hun day by day.

wishing4ababy

bird24

Hun thats so sweet!!!

How was OH yesterday? hope you both had hugs and kisses all day!!!

Have you tested yet?

xx

TT's

Bird I know EXACTLY how you feel here.

My DB has a LO with his ex (not so little 11 year old boy) and we love him to bit's. He comes to ours thurs nights, fri nights sat days and sundays. I personally organise MY life around what his ex does all week so that DB can spend as much time as possible with him.
It's hard and most of the time I HATE the situation so I know what your feeling! My DB has a good job and pays ex £800 per month (mostly for school fee's) Then he also buy's him ALL the clothes he requires and pays half to the after school club. I think this is excessive (I never say this to DB cause it's not my call) but ex is always going on about how skint she is ( ) yet all the while I have to sit here politly working 9 till 5 to earn precicly the same amount of money that he pays her. (If he didn't have to pay this much I wouldn't have to work during the day on a shitty reception - I have my own business at a dance school but that doesn't earn enough for us to be able to afford the mortgage so I do 9till 5 in this crappy job then 6 till 9 at the studio and all day sat) I don't degrudge the money going to the child at all, but it annoys me when she starts moaning and calling all the shots about when DB can see LO
I know hard hard it is, we have to sit here and keep quite all the while waiting month after month for our own thinking 'thing's will change when we get our '

Sorry...I just took over your journal for a rant! Anyway, at least you know that we are in the same boat

bird24

wow TT's you really do know what its like as i feel the same....
OH does put everything past me though before he agrees anything with her which makes me feel better...
we have him, weds, saturdays and sundays
Then shes always texting him moaning about something, she already has another baby with someone else and he's now left her, the baby is 5 months old....she does my head in.... my OH doesnt speak to his mum as she ran out and left his dad to raise 4 boys on his own, then came back years and years later and took his dad to court and won half the mortgage back because she was paying it for the years they were together, yet she hadnt paid anything towards the kids or the mortgage for at least 10-15 years after that....how lame is that....so he doesnt speak to her yet his X does and obviously is just to get money from her so yesterday OH's LO turned up with a new scooter thing and when OH asked who brought him that he said 'nana jane' which is OH's mum.....and i bet you his X made him take it round to his on purpose just to prove a point thats shes getting money from her and still seeing her.....so annoying!!!!!!!!!! wow that was a big rant xxxx hope it makes sense

TT's

Rant away it's fine ( it's waht jounals are for )

It's soooo anoying when all these outside people come and throw spanners in the works of your relationship and you end up upset or arguing and they're fine

DAMN THEM ALL I SAY !

bird24

yes damn them all - i hate that she upsets my baby (well my OH)

I cant wait to marry him and us to have a family not just a baby but a proper family including his LO as he's so damn cute and doesnt deserve any of this....... it wont be anything like what shes done and got pregnant by telling them she cant have kids and then tricking them into not using anything or saying she was on the pill..... this will be because we both want it so much and will make a very happy family....

I cant wait to be a mumy, he is already a brilliant daddy

TT's

It WILL happen honey and you're right it will be a much better set up

Big

I was talking about this to my doctor yesterday and he said that he see's this all the time with earie consistancy...people who take chances always seem to end up pg while the ones who try and try always have a long wait. He said the only sure fire way to get pg is to not try lol

It just goes to show that making a baby has absolutly nothing to do with wanting one so much (not to mention spending a small fortune on ttc products ahem )

bird24

exactly - so i need to pretend i meet OH that night....and i'm having a one night stand....that i'm wasted and i dont even like him....that way it might happen so sad that it cant be made out of loving someone so much that you make a baby together