melbo

oh bird im sorry
She aint got me yet (3 days away)
I have no symptoms, and do not feel pregnant.
She is on her way for me too, i just wish my cycles wernt so damn long!
My cervical position is low and hard, and my temp dropped this morning, it is inevitible!!!!

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our time will come babe x

bird24

Yep my cervix went hard so i knew i was out....nevermind

I think i was just kinda hoping that it would be a nice surprise and would mean i wouldnt have to have that op next week....
roll on tuesday to get it out the way and find out if i've got anything to worry about.

Hope the doesnt get you but if she does roll on new cycle

xxx

wishing4ababy

so sorry she got you babe - she really is a bitch.

bird24

Yep she is....just wrote the same on your wall

Shes giving me some pain this month too the cow....

wishing4ababy

I was in agony yesterday but now she has settled in she seems to have made herself comfy, the pain has gone. still hating her and not accepting that she is here - she aint welcome so wish she would just buzz off!
you all set for this cycle then? feeling positive?

bird24

I'm still in pain but at least she came when she was supposed to and didnt make me wait a few days or anything so i have to be thankful for that really.

I would like to be positive but to be honest i'm soooo nervous about what they are gonna tell me next week i cant think of anything else...hopefully it will be some good news and then i can start being positive again....

I hate all this wondering if theres something wrong with me and whether i'll ever be able to get pregnant...its a horrible thought and its been something i've always wanted since i was soooo young...so if i find out i cant have a baby i'll be devastated....some women dont realise how lucky they are to be able to have a child...just hope i can....its the not knowing if i can that makes it worse, if someone could say 'yes you definetly will be able to have children naturally' then i'd be happy and just when it happens it happens but the not knowing if i ever will scares the sh*t out of me to be honest.

i hope you start feeling better soon hun, these emotions are so hard to deal with and it really isnt easy going through all the ups and downs....hopefully we will all have something to celebrate soon

xx

wishing4ababy

Before i answer, where the hell is Nicola647? i hope she is off celebrating her - have you heard from her?

I know exactly what you mean about the "not knowing". When we were ttc our first it was awful every month when af arrived i used to break my heart crying - wherever i was it didn't matter. I lost count of how many times OH wuold find me in the bathroom crying uncontrollably. All i can say is that you forget all this pain once you get your BFP. Please try not to get too stressed out about next week - think of it as the first step to you getting what you want. Have you had the blood tests done? i had those done first, and was waiting for my lap apt when i found out i was pg. The bloods confirmed i was ov and OH had healthy sperm so it was literally just a matter of time. AND i think it was me getting the pill out of my system. The gp explained to me that when you are on the pill you stop ovulating so when you come off it it just depends on how quickly your body "remembers" how to do it again. It took mine a while - and i knew that by how everything started to change just before i got pg. I think it took me at least a year to get it out of my system completley. it will be ok hun - i know it. I know that is easy for me to say when i am not the one doing it next week.
I am just not in the mood for doing any work today - just been out for a bit but reckon i am going to leave a little early and pick kids ip earlier than i would normally do from nursery.

bird24

Thanks chick

Just emailed Nic at work to see how she is....been so busy today i havent been able to get on here

Nope i havent had my bloods done...gonna go to my doctor soon and ask for that, they dont know i'm ttc as i've just been going about my pains not about ttc, i told the gynae and she was helpful thats why they are checking my tubes too when they do my lap...
god i really never thought that ttc would be like this...someone should warn the world, lol
you and need to sit down with DH and cuddle up together and talk about it as you dont wanna give up ttc but then you've gotta not let it drive you mad and push him away, he must be feeling so bad for you and thats why he wants to stop as seeing you hurting he cant handle...same as my OH, he hates seeing me so upset all the time so i'm trying to be brave as the last thing i'd want is him saying i think we should stop ttc.

i just sat in front of the tv last night while OH was asleep and i couldnt stop crying, i was watching 'in her shoes' and for some reason just started balling my eyes out....think its just nerves and feeling low is getting to be bigtime as i'm thinking the worst about my op....gonna try and be positive now otherwise i'm gonna be a mess by next week

found everything hard yesterday as i took OH little boy to a indoor play area and there was so many kids and families everywhere it just made me upset as i want someone to call me mummy, then my AF arrives while i was there so that was so lame!! anyway trying to be strong so enough worrying and getting upset.

it will happen for us!!!

xxxx

bird24

CD 2

Bad period pains

I feel so bloated again which is making me feel so fat!!!

I feel sick & tired!

Hoping i feel better tomorrow.....

yaya

Really sorry that you're feeling bad Bird! Will be thinking of u next week -- when do u go in for your op? Sending u extra strength cyber

yaya xxx