Well I thought I would start a journal as hopefully it will pass the time whilst TTC. I have never really been good at doing a diary (although I do love to read other peoples) but hopefully I will update this as much as possilbe.

So some back ground about me:-

I am 26 and got married in November last year. Me and my OH were trying for 3 weeks before i got pregnant then I lost the baby about 2 weeks ago. I did think to myself at the time that it was pretty quick at getting pg and kept on thinking constantly about having a mc and then it happened whilst I was on holiday which made it twice as bad as I just wanted to be in my own home. So next time I am only going to send out positive thoughts.

Anyway enough dwelling on the past. We started on 15 March and I did not wait to my first period before we started doing it again. My GP said this would be okay and I felt okay in myself to start trying again.

I have decided that if all goes well and the does not show her ugly face I am going to test in 15 April, all very organised I know but I think I may have OCD and cannot stand not being organised. So until then I am not quite sure what to do wth myself, well apart from stuff my face with easter eggs this weekend and come on here every day.

So enough of my jibber jabber good luck to all of those testing this month! xx

Hi Stephanie

We got married in Oct last year and have been TTC since, having lost our baby at 5 months preggers. This is my first month TTC and AF is due anytime now.

Get bonking then!!

Oh you poor thing, I hope everything goes well for you. Beleive Here is some good wishes for you xx

Helloooo!! Just wanted to pop in and wish you luck on your journey, and lots of for a swift

So it has been a week and 3 days we have been trying and I constantly think about having a baby. I wake up in the morning thinking about it and think about it before going to sleep at night. Every where I go people are pregnant or I see TV commericals with babies in!!

I still cannot stop thinking about having another miscarriage. I am trying so hard not to think about it and think positive but I cannot stop thinking what if it happens again, I will be so upset. Even worse what if I keep on having them. What if there is something wrong with me, every twing I get I think oh what if I am pregnant now am I going to loose it. It is so hard not to think about it and it is really starting to upset me. My husband gets mad at me and tells me to stop being so negative but it is really hard as he can do his bit what if I cannot not do mine. Sorry for being so depressing in this post I feel writing it all down makes me feel much better even.

Anyway still (opps pressed it one too many times, but you get the picture). My friend told me when she was trying she would lay on her back with her legs in the air. So I am lying there with my legs in the air for about 30 min and by the end my legs are shaking so much and when I get up I nearly fall over they are like jelly. But I figure I am going to give the little guys all the help they can get

Right am off to bed for some beauty sleep night night.

Good luck Steph.

Thank you x

So I was really naughty yesterday and did a test, i do not know why I did it as I knew it would not show up. Nevermind I told myself that I would wait until April to test but hay!

The thing is I am not even sure when to test as I did not wait for my period after my mc so I am just going to try again next week and hope for the best as I am too inpatient to wait for another 3 weeks.

I am going to a wedding this weekend so that will keep my mind off doing another test.

I so know what you mean about the legs being like jelly! I do that too, keep them in the air with a pillow under my bum but I guess from now on when we get back to BDing I'll just prop them against the wall.

Sounds like you're doing all the right things, good luck!

Oh I put the pillow under my bum as well it helps me to swing my legs back ha!! x