Hi my lovlies,
Well, last day at work today until next tuesday-

!!!
Woke up this morning with a familiar feeling, yep af cramps. To top it all off ive had a sharp pain in my right ovary area ALL day. It quite hurts...but at least i know,

is on her way, but then again i suspected it. Oh, well...move on to next month, eh
I was waiting for OH yesterday in the pub when i ran into a mutual friend of ours. He's in the delicate situation of having made his ex pregnant after a ridiculous but not unheard of post breakup s**g. Once! he said, and here we are!
When i first heard of this from oh i was really pissed off as you can well imagine. But talking to him last night he told me some interesting stuff, that encouraged me in a way. First he said he'd thought the train had left for him as he's never gotten anyone pg ever, even after the silly stuff we've all been guilty of doing in the past. And several of his exes have gone on to have kids so he said he just assumed he was sterile or something. The next thing he told me was that his ex's mother started menopause at 39 so when his ex started having all these problems like extremely irregular periods etc etc etc she thought she was starting her menopause. Had lots of tests at docs, and one test finally came up as pg!!!
When he told me that i could totally see why she wanted this baby so much and how absolutely thrilled (albeit shocked

) she was. They only did it once!!! And he said he feels quite guilty about having a baby (not in a bad way of course) because both his sister and brother have had babies with ivf and it just happened with him... He's over the moon though and cannot wait to be a dad..aw!
I mentioned a mutual friend of ours sister is finally getting fertility treatment after a long wait, and he said he knows lots of people who are doing it as well.
Now, i know this isnt exactly great news that loads of people are having trouble ttc..but to me if re-assured me im no freak, you know? His ex will 36 this year and he's over 40 so they're no spring chickens, lol..says i who's 38..ha, ha...!!!
But i thought it interesting that here she was having all these probs and they s**g once, and she gets pg!!! There's hope still


So thats me..trying again as always..im never giving up so it'll happen one day!!!
Now i just need to pack- including cbfm and tampons..argh, lol!!! And hope i dont come across any dodgy toilets while in Paris..have some rather unhappy memories with those pre-historic 'crouch over hole in ground' thingies
Been to asda and have bought a small truck load of catfood, catmilk an treats..yes, its the guilt talking, lol!!! i even felt bad at work about leaving them..just imagined them sitting there..all sad....

felt awful, i really did..until i realised i was projecting my human feelings onto them

they're probably more likely to be like 'woohoo!!!!!

And they'll be well taken care of, phew..all will be fine (she says, to reassure herself, lol)
Anyway, thats me..off to Gay Paris, oui, oui! And can i also say i have nipped into many of your journals so i know there's a fair bit of despondency about this cycle and its outcome, but ladies...if i can do it again w/o falling apart with my old raisin eggs (lol)- then for focaccia's sake, so can you!!! lol!!!
I want to see complete battle plans drawn up, opk's sharpened and ready for battle and raging massive
PMA's when i come back. ok?!!
We will succeed, my lovlies, we will. Just keep the faith and believe your bfp is waiting just around the corner- i do!!
, Omi xxx