Hiya ladies,
so, had minor blip yesterday- you know, where you feel like everything is crap and you just wanna go hide under a duvet. When oh came home he, surprise, surprise

picked up on this and we had a lovely chat where we decided on a few things. When we come back from Paris we're gonna go on a major health kick, oh is gonna stop smoking..ok, ok..me too..i have been badder than i intended too and certainly have been eyeing to give up toally, but this is the first time oh is gonna do it!!! yay! also, scale back the drinking- we're no alcho's but we like a drink in the evening with dinner and we have decided thats gonna stop, including a general healthier attitude overall. (and going to doc to get on list for fertility treatment, as back up)
The nicest things was that after speaking to oh, he did admit he worries about getting pg too, which is nice cause i feel like im the only one sometimes. But he said he feels the exact same way i do-phew, thats so great to hear!!!!

and such a relief!
Anyway, thats the plan and and i feel back to normal
Strange thing is while at work today i thought i might enjoy Paris more if i'm not pg..disgraceful, isnt it?

I also have to admit that that i have an alterior motive- yes, ladies..

i secretly hope if i dont want it so much i might actually find out i am

i have no shame- its official!! LOL!
Anyway, come what may, if i am pg, contrary to all hope and wishes, i shall be skipping around Paris annoying all the fromageries trying to get a hard cheese..ha, ha!!
On the really funny front- well, if you saw me, anyway.. i was at the dentist's today after work... left looking like Leslie Ash- no joke!!

It just starting to ease up a bit..but bloody hell, lol!
The moral of the story is..if you feel a bit blue and down..your oh, you lover, partner and future baby-daddy very often proves to be not only your rock, soundboard and closest friend, particularly in the ttc process, but also very often turns out feeling just the same as you- but being men..well, they dont express it as much!


Im now gonna go and sip my drink through a straw
Bon soir, ladies

, Omi xxx