Omi,

Well you have something to look forward to for your birthday, good news

Like you Omi i m actually feeling i duuno know, like i m waiting. But now i m not spotting for a week, i m like oh maybe i have somethin in a week or two. Then i m putting in the ovulation calculators online that date to see when would be my dd.

But yeah i ve had to wait a long time. I found out on the 11 Jan, a day after my birthday so i m like wanting to getting going its like 2 month later almost.

So the moral to that rant above is that i m bloody impatient as well. lol

But at least we have something to look forward to now.....

AAAAAAaaarrgh!!!

just double checked on the pg test i took on thursday which came up BFP and i didnt realise you had to wait 5 minutes to read it....im such a numpty!!

Raged through house to find it and I finally did- C.R.A.P..there's a very faint second line on it

In other words..i still had hcg in my body..I'm raging as I'm so annoyed I didn't check the directions properly- and gutted as was so chuffed and smug within myself that things had gone so smoothly--argh!!!.... this is soooo typically me..

Anyone know if these things have a shelf life on reading them.. im clutching at straws, lol...

Ah, well... back to the drawing board....B***s!!!^£%^*&**9!!!

Just a quick update..i cant seem to stay away..lol

So, the girlies in the chatroom said for me to do anothr test (u guys know who u r, lol) and it came up negative..so i'll relax for now and start the silly poas OPK's soon i think...Argh!! the madness!! Lol, cheers for being so suportive girls.. i'd go crazy without this place.. well..crazier! Lol

we are always here for u omi u no that xx

Cheers, and right back at ya, babe!!!

Well, since these hackers have ruined things i'll re-iterate what i posted yesterday..
yesterday was my first day to work since my mc.... when i was last there it was Valentines day and I was so looking forward to my first scan the next morning...

I have worried endlessley about going back and now i know why... Going in, being there ALL reminded me of what i'd lost and that i wasnt pregnant anymore. I had to stop from bursting into tears all day, and on the bus home, i was so upste and felt so cheated i was no longer pregnant.. came home and burst into tears...

Luckily OH was so sweet and understanding and put a film for us both to watch as we snuggled up togehter with a glass of wine... totally took my mind of things and i could that see it was a phase, a natural phase and that the worst was over..

Today i felt much better, i slept well(!) and i was able to look at things and remember what it was like before i got pg and not only remember what everything was like when i was..

Im also glad that after a week of feeling nothing physically- and i mean nothing..no twinges , anything at all, which made me feel like my head was on someone elses body.. not good..i finally feel little twinges and stuff.

It might seem strange to someone else but it made feel more like the old me was coming back and that slowly but surely i will be back to who i was pre-pg..just with a lot more experience..

Finally, just to prove im a total nutter..lol... Im convinced my next baby will be a girl..just like i was the last one was a boy( OH agreed about this) ..when the time is right i will get pg again and i'll start my pg-craziness again, lol..

Im pretty sure it will be a 2009 baby for me, i hope.... babydust to me and all of you girls!!!

ps, have also promised myself not to get too obsessed with this poas business..so after having done one yesterday and zippo, i'll do another tomorrow, wish me luck!!

hi omi ...just cheking to see how you were doing today

oh and YAY !!!!to 2009 babies!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Omi,

I was wondering how you'd get on. It must be tough, but your strong and you obviously got through it. The tears are natural. It sounds like your OH is really tuned in to what will help you which can only be good. Here's a and all the best for your '09 baby girl!

Aaww, thanks Nic... every kind word is like balm to the soul..or something..no? Lol!! I really appreciate it. My OH is my rock, my soulmate and my bestest friend-ever.it helps,no doubt...

Hope you're enjoying quality (!!!!!) time with hubby though, Nic take good care of eachother and fingers crossed!!!..xx and a hug back