Hi guys,
so- have had some ups and downs the last few days altho all is good now.
Sunday night OH gets a phonecall from his brother who's bi-polar and his having a shit time, all depressed and oh spends the next 45 minutes trying to sort him out, culminating in asking him over monday. Needless to say, oh did not feel like bd and didnt think he'd be much up to it yesterday either. I almost broke into tears saying i didnt want to lose any time and that having baby is the most important thing in the entire world, etc!!
OH was of course feeling bad about it but said he cant help it..so i had to agree its more difficult for him than me.. went to bed crying myself to sleep. Then i woke up in the middle of the night and OH was hugging me, and it was so nice to know he cares and to feel loved, you know..it was very sweet
next morning however, i still felt a bit angry and dissapointed.. it dissapated however, and i said to OH that as ive not got a high reading yet i guess things are still ok, so oh punched air and said, good stuff!!
Brother came around..we were really not looking forward to an evening of doom and gloom, you know? But surprisingly enough, we had a nice eve and bil seemed to enjoy himself so things, when he left, weren't that bad after all!! It wqas quite late but we listened to records and had a few drinks and then had a 'lovely time' together, lol!!
Anyway, so disaster diverted, however now, im worried im not gonna ov on time, or soon or whatever... still no peak on cbfm..yes, yes..i know ive been pg in meantime and havent used it in a long time..but still ..grrrrrr!
had a look at the stick today and i think i saw a faint second line so im hoping something will shift soon... says 'queen of impatience'!!!
This is turning into a mini rant but, also, have no ov symptoms that have been relying on entire life..had some mini cramps in ovary area yesterday..i think ive got a beginning of ov cm but not quite yet.. I HATE WAITING- MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!
thanks for reading all this crap..upwards and onwards, eh? lol!!! xxxx