hiya everyone, im new to this site.
i have thought about writing a journal for some time but never quite got round to it. im Ttc after One Still birth @29weeks last feb (07), my daughter skyela. it was a very hard pregnancy i was constantly sick and that whole time in my life properly scared me for life i still wake up in cold sweats with flash backs of labour and thinkig that i can hear my baby crying etc...
i also had a miscarrage @12weeks in sept(07)

ever since then there has been a huge void in my life and all i can think about is getting pregnant again, i gave my body a rest for a few months and have just started trying again (in the last two months) i take all the vitamins and pee on sticks all the time just hoping for the BFP, im trying not to get myself too stressed out because that isnt going to help...
the last two months have been awful i was so upset when m period finally came.. my first one was a week late and this one is just around the corner (27 on my birthday woohoo)

i have been getting to grips with opks and this month i had a bright positive result on the 13 (valentines baby?) and have been feeling sick etc.. although im not sure if thats in my head or not...
i did i test yesterday even though i know its prob too early ( i just couldnt help myself) and it was neg... and now im just waiting!

god i sound like a women posessed! thanks for listening i shall make a big effort to keep this journal updated!

Good luck hun.
x

Good luck, i am also a stilborn mommy, my child was 37 weeks and 2 days.
Hope you get your BFP

thank you for your well wishes.

do you talk about you child at all? just out of curiosity cause i have photos and foot casts etc of my little skye and point blanky refuse to put them away in a box...also when people ask me if i have any children i say yes i had a litle girl who died...i have been told a few times my behavor is slightly odd but my doctor assures me that its healthy.. i was wondering if you did anything simmilor

Well i never saw my son, only my DH saw him with my sister. I was in a coma for 3 days after having my c-section. Well i have his hand and foot prints, and alot of scan photos of him, but i have put it all into a memory box, as if i had to see it every day it will brake me into a million bits and pieces.
I do talk about him alot, cause alot of people ask what happened. My story is on B&B is called my story Warning very sad, just do a search about 2 weeks ago i had the courage to post my story.

Me and DH still cry about our son, but we are TTC now actively for the first time since we lost him.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, and for once there is someone that knows how you feel.

Hope you do get your BFP very soon hunny.
You can PM me any time if you need to talk.

Regards im heading home now

see im a bit different then, i think if i didnt see her face everyday i break into a million peices, its amazing how different two people can be. thank you for your kind words.

i wish you all the luck in the world i really do,im so sorry you had to feel that pain and i hope to god that you never have to deal with that sort of thing in your future.

take care

I FEEL SICK! i felt sick all evening yeasterday and i woke up feeling sick this morning, AF is due in one day so its prob just af symptoms, as i havent felt anything implantation pains as i did with my last two (unless ive been asllep but i dont way to get my hopes up)

i have to go into town today to put a cheque in the bank so will see how i go and update later.

i had really odd dreams last night i kept getting BFPS then BFNS for what seemed like hours! i woke up at 7 and gave up trying to sleep after that. wooohoo for crappy morning tv!

god im fed up and its still early

Hey just wanted to pop in and wish you luck TTC.

I am sorry for your loss too hunni

Sending lots of your way.

Oh and i didnt realise you were from MK, hardly a million miles away!!

nope not far at all! thank you for all the baby dust!

sorry to hear about your losses. I wish you all the best during your TTC journey! I am due tomorrow as well, so maybe our cycles are quite similar, my OV day was around the 13th as well! fingers crossed for BFPs this week!! Good Luck!