TT's

Sorry you feel so down darling

Tanya

oh hun.. i am so sorry you are feeling down but you will feel better soon and you will get your soon.. just keep at it... it will happen.. this is a very stressful journey but we will make it.... always here for u

Lazy Leo

Thanks TT & Tanya. And Farie - thank you for the PM's, it means a lot
I adjusted my temp in a basal adjustment calculator and it brings it back up to 36.9 which is still a bit of a drop but not as much. I just don't know what to think now. Obviously I really want to hope, but I just know how crushing it's going to be when it all comes crashing down. God I feel like a mad woman. So full of different emotions, rational, emotional and everything in between.
My mum's coming over tonight so I won't be on here. We are making a memory book online for my grandparents golden wedding anniversary later this month. How nice it would be to have their great grandchild wrapped and waiting to be opened in 8 months time.....
D'you know it's my own anniversary on the 21st, maybe I'll have a confirmed pregnancy by then. Then again, maybe I won't

Sorry I'm a bit of a loony today but tomorrow's a new day.....

PS I've edited my FF home page so you can compare this months chart with the chart from my failed pregnancy.....

Loo

Hi Nic, I've not written in your journal before, but just wanted to say sorry to hear what you are going through at the moment.

Each month I feel like I have a little person on each shoulder - one telling me there's a chance because of the nausea I had that morning or some symptom or other....and one on the other shoulder telling me I am stupid and all the evidence points to no pregnancy!

So I know exactly how you feel.

I've decided its a protective mechanism for me. Cos if I was truly convinced I wasn't pregnant that month, I would crack open a bottle of red wine!! But this schizophrenic behaviour stops me doing that 'just in case'. So I've decided its a good thing - even if it drives me completely bonkers!! - cos one day hopefully the 'you are pregnant' voice will be right....

hugs xxx

Farie

Blooming hell Nic, those charts are similar!
You did have a dip around day 25/26 on the earlier chart, it looks kinda like its happened a day later this month .. but then so has O?

As Loo says, keep listening to both voices, the one with hope and the one that's trying to be rational, until that damned turns up the hopeful one is allowed to be there, even if its keeping quiet

I go up and down like a yoyo towards the end of the 2ww, yes/no may be/may be not ... poor DF doesn't know what to say or do.
He tries to be rational and gets his head bitten off for being a sceptic, he tries to be enthusiastic and gets told to stop being silly and its just AF on her way. Poor guy!

Lazy Leo

Thanks girls! I guess I'll know soon.....

Loo, so sorry to meet you when I'm being a complete miseryguts!!!

Lazy Leo

Well temp this morning was back up at 37.02 which is back in the right ballpark. But I still got a negative hpt. I have used so many tests this month I'm almost bankrupt lol!

Omi

Hi Nic..

i see you're having a bit of ...oh, dear..its never easy is it? Lol! I so understand the weird and crazy feelings that go along with the 'am i?' or 'am not'. Its a bitch but in your case i hope the positive wins out.

All the best Nic..hope you have a lovely weekend! Speek to you later,

, Omi xxx

The Catster

Oh I know what your feeling...sooooo much!!! Its horrid isn't it?

Let's weigh it up....

Temps back up- same chart as pg chart- no sign of AF.....potential

You may have implanted later than you think....so HPTs won't show up!! Also your HCG may not be viable yet....dependent on what HPTs ur using....
Check this chart out....
http://www.betabase.info/showBasicChart.php?type=Single

Now, if she is looming then so be it. You are going to get pg and some point in the next couple of months....just maybe not this month!? I know, I know...its hard, it's bloody hard man....but relax hun and don't read into absolutely everything- temps are nightmares when we are obsessing...it puts you in a bad mood all day when you get a low one post O, doesn't it? And frankly, it shouldn't do this to us!!!!

So refresh yourself, maybe stop temping for a few days???

We are gonna get our BFPs hun!!! I just know it!!!!

xxx

NikiJJones

Just catching up, Nic.
Sorry to hear that it is all a rollercoaster at the moment for you.
Sending and