Omi

Hi Nic,

Queen Mum's is great, im so pleased you're going there. Dont forget you can always contact the EPAU if you have ANY questions. There's someone on call there 24 hrs so it might be an idea to contact them if you want an earlier scan..i dont know.

When i spoke to the doc after the mc i asked if it would be possible to get an earlier scan as 8 weeks IS a long time to wait, lol!! And he said 'just call and ask- but not just when you've concveived- ha, ha'..what a joker!! lol!!

Telling people, and picking who to tell is always so difficult isnt it? You just wanna yell it from the rooftoops, but its not a good idea, obviously. I told mum as soon as i poas, lol!! But she's good at keepinh schtum..my dad is not so we waited..how cruel, lol! Although he said later he thought something was up as mum would whisper on the phone and leave the room .

Did you fill out the maternity excemption form while at the docs..the one for free dental treatment and prescriptions? You should get a big pack in the mail from the hospital as well..that's the one that had the information meeting invite that i told you about.

Anyway..i keep going on, but im just so exited for you AND you're practically next door, wahey!!

All the best, hun!!

, Omi xxx

Lazy Leo

I'm not too fussed about it all, after all 9 months is a long time and I need to get used to waiting but its the not knowing that's a bit more difficult for me (control freak )

Really glad I got the QM, looking forward to going there. The doc gave me no info about the EPAU, didn't even mention its existence (!) and didn't give me any forms etc.

She asked me if I'd been taking folic acid and I said I'd been taking pregnacare so she said OK I'll write you a script for Folic Acid anyway for the whole period. And now I don't know if I should be taking that as well as my pregnacare or if that will be too much folic acid in my system

Omi

God, i hate it when they all contradict themselves... I'll pm you with the EPAU numbers, shall i?

I dont think you can have too much folic acid so im sure you'll be fine, Google it as i know someone else asked the same once..

Lazy Leo

This is a just in case I end up back in ttc sooner than I intend. MY FF ticker code. I've updated the signature to have the femme bonita one. Woohoo, so excited





edit:
Ok so that didn't quite work ( I am a dumpling sometimes!) but click in edit and the code is in here!!!

yaya

Loving the new tickers hun!

Yaya xx

Farie

Hope your feeling ok honey, wanted to send you hugs and say thank you again for the hugs and thoughts sent my way recently .. I appreciate then so much xxxx

Lazy Leo

Well, sad but true but this ttc journal is about to be reinvigorated with new life (rather ironically) as it looks like I'm one of the 10% who miscarry. Or indeed the 30-50% who miscarry their first.

Somehow, I need to find the strength to accept that it wasn't my fault. I didn't reject my baby by choice. Something went wrong and I need to hope it won't happen again in the future. The process is only just beginning for me. I started to spot over a week ago and to properly bleed on Tuesday 17th. They said it was too early to scan me and after some false hope finally agreed to scan me on Thursday 26th, a full 9 days after I went to see the doctor. The bleeding has subsided to very light / spotting now but I had persevered with the doctors to get my hcg levels tested and they've fallen from 564 on Friday to 549 on Monday. So I know it's all over.

Google as we all know is a dangerous thing, but I've read a couple of interesting articles on miscarriage, the basics of which are:

a) your body will often 'reject' your first pregnancy (or first with a new partner). Consider having a new kidney - your body needs immuno-suppressants to accept a foreign body; a baby is only 'half' yours and the body needs time to become to 'immune' to pregnancy. Hence higher rates of miscarriage for first pregnancies, but lower rates for later pregnancies. Helpful for people in my position who have lost their first but perhaps insensitive to those who have lost more than one. I hope I haven't offended anyone, it's just something I've found out in my google hunting.

b) chromosomal abnormalities. When the sperm and egg fuse, lots of info is fused, but sometimes the info is incomplete or inaccurate. When the stage of development comes that needs the inaccurate or missing info, the development cannot take place and the pregnancy can't continue.

I've cried so much over the lat ten days that I don't think I have many more tears to cry. I'm hoping that tomorrow at the EPAU they can advise me on how to proceed. I don't know if there is any tissue left or if it has all been bled out in the last week. I've had no pain so I'm preparing for the fact that I might need further action.

It's difficult to find positives in all of this and the only thing I can think of is that if I have a daughter or grand-daughter who find themselves in this position, I will have some experience to pass on. My mum has been great since I told her, but 'all' she had to give was love and hugs. And for that I'm truly grateful.

So, all that's left to say is thank you hubby, mum and all of you who have answered my journals, posts, PM'd me and texted me. Each and every one of you have helped me in some way.

So, here's to moving on.

miel

i am here darling...i will be in every new step toward ttc you will be taking soon

Faerie

Big hugs darling xxx

CloudyDay

Nic, I don't want to bring up any difficult feelings... I don't know much about m/c's... but do you have 100% concrete evidence that your little bean's gone? I've read your message a couple times and I get the sense that it isn't a confirmed m/c. Give me a big old slap if I'm just making things harder for you.