Nic & Jolyn, thanks for popping by journal. Your support means a lot. I'm on my own at the moment and its nice to have people to share this with xxx
Well I'm 10DPO today and they say you can test from this stage usually, but I resisted this morning! I took my temp but the thermometer slipped under my tougue and the reading the was 36.71 (I think) so I put it back in and made it stay in the one place like I usually do and it jumped back up to 37.03 which is more like what it was before yesterdays freefall.
I'm still hoping that maybe this is going to be my month but I also feel - why should this month be any different to any other month we've been trying. Maybe that's just the survival instinct kicking in and trying to stop from getting hurt next week if

arrives.
But I'm glad I didn't test as I've decided if it does go the way I want it to I'm not telling John over the phone, I'll wait till he comes home. I'm due on the 3rd and he comes home on the 18th - so the less time I have to 'not tell him' probably the better!
Oh, I also meant to note that last night I had a glass of wine after a long day of helping my grandad lay slabs in my patio - but after about an hour I felt slightly queasy. So that's coffee and wine which have had that effect on me in the last few days!!! And it's probably all pyschosomatic!!!