jonnanne3

Giving back on the drive by

akamummy

Just thought Id in to your joournal and give you a little sprinkling of also sending you some sticky vibes until your get your

Alexandra

Teehee I'd love to say "told you so". Keep us posted today and tomorrow!

Lazy Leo

Well girls, thanks for all the baby dust and positive thinking, but it wasn't to be. The witch arrived in full flow overnight. She's given me cramps and headaches for a few days now, but hopefully she won't be here for too long.

So this is it Cycle 11 CD1
I'm at a crossroads now for this cycle DH will likely not be home until CD17 and I ovulate at about CD13. He might get home CD11 but I don't want to get my hopes up just in case. Prepare for the worst and hope for the best is my motto. Cycle 12 isn't much better as he leaves again on CD10. There is hope though for Cycle 13. I really don't think there will be a great deal of point in posting in this as its a TTC journal after all. Not a 'dear diary'. I will still be looking around at all you girls' diaries and the main site and I hope some of you might be in first tri by the time I'm back to trying again. But for now its a work-enforced break I think.

I'm trying hard not to want to be angry at DH, I wanted to start trying about two years before we did, but he kept saying he wasn't ready and if I wanted to be able to give up work and look after the baby we needed to wait till he was promoted etc etc. Now look where we are. I'm not angry though, much as I want to be, because it was the right thing to do. If I had forced a baby on him then it might have cost me my marriage and my DH means the world to me so I wouldn't ever do that to him. I also saw the sense in what he was saying.

I do wonder though, what the cost has been? Because while I might still be 'young' in the modern world of ttc, this is only #1 and we want 3. Crikey if I'm 31 or 32 when I'm having the first, what age will I be when we get to no 3 and how long will that take with the drop offs in fertility?

Ah well, c'est la vie. Everything happens for a reason and tends to work out for the best I believe, sometimes it's just difficult to see what that reason is and how it will work out.

I'm going to spend the next two cycles focussing on trying to get a bit fitter and healthier and taking the right vitamins, and maybe when we get back on the right schedule it will happen quickly for us. Maybe, just maybe he will get back in time this schedule and it will work out for us after all.

Sorry this has been a long post, but I'm guessing it will be my last in here for a while. As I said I'll still be posting in all your journals though, just maybe not today as I'm a little tender about it all. Good luck, and share all my out among you for now

tansey

So sorry she got you!! I wish you loads of luck for your next cycle. Like you, I have to tell myself what will be will be!

Alexandra

You know honey, one of the good things with BnB is that you can take any decision no matter how seemingly radical and crazy one day and announce it to us, and then flip and decide against it the next day and announce it to us as well! That's the beauty of it and that's why we're here for you. Please step by, please PM me/us and there is no doubt that it WILL happen for you two.

Rumpskin

Hey Nic

I think you are being very sensible lovely in looking after yourself. In thinking about it, i was alot fitter when I fell preggers last year. I think i will start looking after myself a bit better.

A fitness quest for both xxx

Kaelia67

Aww good luck Nic ,I hope cycle 12 will be a better one for you
Maybe you should chill this month like you said and come back stronger next cycle. There is still hope for cycle 12 as he will be home on CD10. You are still in with a good chance. I hope thing's get better for you babe. As ky said we are alway's here for you.
xxx

superp123

Hey Nic,
Sorry she got you. It sounds like it's got you realing. I know its tough at times and we're all here for you, just remember that. I believe truly that everything happens for a reason. Keep reminding yourself of that. Where one door closes another opens.
Take care of yourself and don't be a stranger.
P

Omi

Hi Nic, honey!

Aw, im sorry the ^&%$%%E&^*( witch got ya.. boooooo!

All the other girlies before me have said it better, so i wont bother re-iterate it. What I will say is, you are still young no matter what you think, although i can understand worrrying. Me and OH have already decided that when get pg will start again right away after birth as we too want more that one... and im 38 already..i'll be old like the hills, lol!... Dont worry too much about that, honey..concentrate on being and feeling well and the great relationship you have w/oh... the BFP will come your way, i do really believe it, pumpkin..sooner than you think ..*hug*

All the best hun, and dont be a stranger, eh? xxxxxx