Hello!

I decided to start writing my own TTC diary, hopefully it will help others going through the same thing, as TTC has so far definately been one of the most amazing, yet frustrating thing i've ever done!

So here's all the background stuff, im Alice, prefer to be called Ally, im 26, nearly 27. I've been with my fiance Elliott since i was 15, and he was 16. We got engaged when i was 15 too, we're still not married but that doesn't bother us that much!
I'm a nursery nurse, and Elliott is a maintainence engineer at BMW.
We both decided to try for a baby around September last year. I was and still am soooooo excited about having a child with the most amazing person in the world, and the thought of us having a child together, just takes my breath away. He will be the perfect Daddy, he's just amazing.
I stopped taking my pill at the end of October, and started taking folic acid, we also started babydancing at every possible second we had spare
I thought i was pregnant in December, but i think it was down to wishful thinking, the got me in the end. This TTC journey has definately been hard for us both, the amount of dissapointment is huge at times, and we've both felt like failures as a result, so a stable, secure relationship has to be one of the main ingredients!

My last period was around the 2nd of January (for some reason that month i didn't note down when it was) i felt my ovulation pains and we have baby danced every day since December 27th! I've had some symptoms, but i've tried not to analyze it too much!

-"little" cramps, sharp pains on left and sometimes right side of lower abdomen

-headaches, that can sometimes last all day

-nausea

-veiny boobs

-very irritable

-increased cm

-spotting around a week or so ago

-am always feeling like af has come, nip to the toilet to find nothing is there

So there you go, there's my symptoms "for this month". I truley don't know whether they are symptoms or its all in my head. I took like 10 hpt's last week and they were all negative. I'm planning on taking one again tomorrow morning, im not sure what to expect really.

Anyway, thanks for reading, and i will keep you updated - babydust to you all!

Ally xxxxxxx

Good luck on your journey. x

Good luck, hope you get your BFP soon!

Hi Ally,

It's a great idea to keep a journal. I find it's somewhere I can come and focus on my feelings and efforts and share advice and experiences. There are so many wonderful people here who genuinely want the best for each other.

I too came off BCP in October (31st) and started taking folic acid too. I started charting my BBT on the Fertility Friend website and highly recommend it (you may already be familiar with it). This is the one tool that I have used that has taught me the most about my own body. It is now keeping me sane while I wait for AF or a positive PG test. You can share your chart (or part of it) with others too who can give you their opinion on how they would interpret it.

Sharing some with you for your ttc journey.

Welcome Ally

Hope you get your BFP soon - good luck

Morning everyone!
This morning i couldn't resist it any longer, i took a test. It may be my mind tricking me, but im sure i can see the faintest of faintest lines. I will try and get a picture up but i don't think my camera will pick it up. I don't know how to feel, am i happy? am i confused? I'm probably just imagining it, but i'm sure i saw a line
I keep checking it and its still the same. I'm going to go back to tesco later and buy some more hpt. My ticker is so obviously wrong *rolls eyes*

Gosh this stuff is exhausting.

Hi

this waiting game is awful. Hope you get your BFP soon xxx

Ahhh the agonising wait for the to show up!!

Hopefully she wont and youll get your BFP!! Are you going to test again in the next few days?

Welcome Ally! Always great to have another soon-to-be-insane ttc-er to share with!
for your journey and hopefully a already this month!!!!

Hi everyone, hope you are all ok.

I really don't have anything to report this week. Been babydancing all this week, and just praying for a result. I'm so depressed this week, seems all i have heard is how "she's pregnant" and "she's has her baby" ... arrghh everywhere i look i see a pregnant woman! When will it be my turn?! We are doing everything right
I know my time will come, but what if its 5 years, and 5 cycles of IVF later?

Ugh