Nic

Hey Ally, I replied to your post on the main forum and it sounds really bitchy - I just wanted to reassure that we are all in the same boat. I know how frustrating it is to see the but hang on in there, your time WILL come pet. Also please stop beating yourself up over the pill, I was on the pill for 11 or 12 years and many other women have been as well and have been able to conceive. I don't think its a decisive factor in the length of the ttc journey. Best of luck hun and some for your continuing journey xx

_Alice_

I've replied sweetie, it's ok, it's not bitchy at all, don't worry! Were all in the same boat, and it's great to know other people are going through the same thing!
I hope i can help others and make the journey a little bit easier for them, and thats what you were doing by telling me your opinion!

Lots of love, and babydust to you!
Ally xx

_Alice_

I thought i would update this, as i haven't in a while!
So i'm 18DPO today, hmm and still no sign of
I'm getting so impatient, i'd rather she just show up so i know my cycle is starting again.
I'm feeling sooooo positive today, not just about TTC, but about stuff in general, it's great feeling like this, i feel so relaxed. I haven't been noting down all my 'symptoms', i've stopped checking my CP 20 times a day .. and well, i just feel so much better for it.
There really is no use just getting all worked up and worried about not ovulating, BD on time, not doing this or that .. it will happen when it's ready. My body is obviously not ready yet. I remember reading somewhere that "I've been on the pill 10 years, and for 10 years i've stopped my body getting pregnant, and now, when it suits me to get pregnant, it's not the right time for my body, my body just can't turn on the get pregnant switch".
And that is totally right .... i've stopped my body doing what it was put on this earth for, i cant expect it to get pregnant when it suits me!
Oh well, i'm feeling so great today, and i'm soo excited about everything!

Love you all, you've been great!

_Alice_

An up-to-date list of my 'symptoms'

*Absoloute FATIQUE!!
*Gassy
*High CP
*Cramps
*Lower backache
*Achey legs
*Bleeding gums
*Increased milky CM
*No period, i'm 4/5 days late now

If i was pregnant i'd be around 4 weeks 5 days i think, surely a HPT would pick that up by now?!

Rumpskin

Come on Alice, go test, pleasey weasey lovely xx

All those symptoms sound so promising. Unwrap that pack!

_Alice_

And i'm just getting the onset of a full on headache

nicola647

_Alice_

I tested this morning, with a Tesco's HPT, and yep, i knew it .
I did know it was coming, but i think you always have this little bit of hope.
After i tested i was in such a foul mood, i didnt want to come on here and be moody so i left it a while.
I've realised though, this IS NOT the end of the world. Maybe someone up there has decided that the time isnt right for me at this minute. I'm starting a new job in June, maybe god has planned for me to get pregnant after that so i'm not too stressed .. you never know!
With all these symptoms, that i know im not imaging (as i did actually feel gas coming out of my bum ) i get so confused.
What confuses me more is that when there are a constant supply of troops, why doesnt it happen?
People that dont mean to get pregnant (and sometimes even use contraception) seem to end up pregnant, and when us girls are trying so hard, it never happens, how does that work Mr Storky?
I can kinda understand that the pill probably hasnt left my body and wont leave for another couple of months yet. It's so frustrating, and i feel so bad that my poor OH is being abused

This month, i'm going to take a more relaxed approach. I'm NOT going to write down any symptoms, and im NOT going to chart my CP or anything. It's too much, and makes the disapointment much worse.
I'm just going to do ALOT, and i mean ALOT of

I also wanted to say, thank you so much too my TTC girlies, they have been brilliant, please strinkle some over them!

nicola647

Hey Alice,

sorry about the - but while the is away, surely your still in the game?? it aint over till she shows her ugly face.... and even if she does show, at least that marks that start of a brand new cycle, and maybe the relaxed aproach will help, you never know. wishing u some lucky anyway. xxx

_Alice_

Thanks Nicola!
I think it's just the pill making wait, oh well, i will find out sure enough!!