Hi Ally, sorry to hear that the witch got you, and that she made you wait all that time too! I so understand the way you were feeling - it just seems so unfair at times. Newlyweds all around me are falling pregnant and sometimes I wish I had tried for a baby when I was younger and had no money in the bank instead of waiting for 'the right time'! But you've gotta be positive.

Great news on your new job btw - maybe a change like that will bode well for you! Fingers crossed for a better month for you.

Gosh, i'm rubbish at keeping up with this diary! I have a real one, that i write into all the time - but it's nice to share your world with others i suppose!
Anyway, back to the last time i wrote, i think i said that the came, well she sure did, for 5 heavy days! I supposedly ovulated on Thursday (Yesterday) So since Sunday me and OH have been BDing twice a day! I've been having some little twinges, clear stretchy cm, and a very high cervix - hope these are all good signs! I'm feeling so much more positive about TCC this month.

Congratulations to all the new mums-to-be, hopefully i will be there with you very soon!

Hi Alice

Sounds like all is going to plan lovely. Hopefully a little Alice in the making xx

Aww thanks hun xxx

You've done well this month. Hope it works for you!

Good to hear thing are going well this month. You'll get your bean soon I'm sure xx

Well this evening i've had some short sharp pains in my lower abdomen .. very strange! I've felt my cervix again, still high, and a little bit open .. more BD tonight i think!

Excitement!!!!!!

My gosh, i haven't updated this in a while!

I'm feeling soooooooooooo down about this month! I'm a little more positive today, but it's getting much harder than i thought to be happy about this all the time.
The day before yesterday, i took a HPT, and it was BFN. If AF (which was due today or yesterday) hasn't arrived yet, i've got a tiny weeny bit of hope .. but not much.
I really think the pill is screwing with me. I regret going on that stupid pill so much. I was on it for nearly 11 years. It's probably done a lot of damage. Arrrrgghh
I will test on Saturday if AF hasn't arrived, although i'm pretty sure she won't .. she will just leave me in limbo and with a lot of BFN for a few more weeks, make me sweat a bit f***ing b***h!!!!!!!

I need some anger management!!

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Cycle background:
Came off Microgynon 30 in mid November
First natural period 13 March 2008
Ovulation around 27th March
Next period due around 9th April
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Symptoms pre ovulation:

22/3/08 - No BD, AM slight twinges left and right side, PM milky white thickish CM, teenage acne breakout!

23/3/08 - BD, AM milky white CM, PM twinges

24/3/08 - BD, Am twinges, milky white CM, PM milky white CM

25/3/08 - PM milky white CM, High cervix

26/3/08 - BD x 2, very high cervix

27/3/08 OVULATION DAY - BD, very high cervix "not there", AM + PM wetter CM

28/3/08 1DPO - AM 2 AF type cramps, high cervix with big 'dip' BD

29/3/08 2DPO - Short sharp pains x2, high cervix AM+PM, Not much CM PM, BD

30/3/08 3DPO - Slightly open high cervix (PM) BD, Lots of wet CM

31/3/08 4DPO - High slightly open cervix, No noticed CM, BD x2

1/4/08 5DPO - High slightly open cervix, Milky CM, BD

2/4/08 6DPO - Am middle high cervix with dip, no noticed CM, PM high cervix with dip, PM high closed cervix, No BD

3/4/08 7DPO - AM very high closed cervix, no noticed CM, Odd twitches here and there, bit of milky/clear CM, BD, tired, PM high cervix - little dip, raised pubice bone area

4/4/08 8DPO - High cervix - dip, tired, Pubic bone bump, No noticed CM, PM Crampy feelings, highish cervix with dip, No BD

5/4/08 9DPO - AM high cervix with dip, milky wet CM, very gassy, Crampy niggly twitches, tired, no BD, Unreachable cervix

6/4/08 10DPO - Nausea AM, yellowy CM, BD, High closed firm cervix, PM unreachable cervix, Odd crampy feelings, Gassy

7/4/08 11DPO - AM restless legs - achey feeling, Hunger in middle of the night, Lots of saliva, nausea, gas, very very high firm cervix, crampy feelings all morning, unreachable cervix PM, yellowy sticky CM, diorrhoea, unreachable cervix again PM, BD, "Unreachable cervix" says my partner (I get him to check sometimes )

8/4/08 - 12DPO (AM BFN) - Nausea AM, gas, unreachable cervix, PM unreachable cervix, Little pains, white milky CM (very little though), odd twinges, No BD.

9/4/08 13DPO - AM Unreachable cervix, tummy cramps, white milky CM, very high CP gas, no BD, crampy feelings, PM shooting pains 'pin prick' at the tops of legs

10/4/08 14 DPO - AM crampy feelings