hi ALLY...hope you are doing well ...not to long before testing! good luck

Hey Ally, I hope your TTC journal doesn't have to many entries lol! I really hope you get your I have to say I understand that 'what if it's five years and five sets of IVF later' hopefully it won't come to that!

Thanks girls. It's just getting really frustrating. I know i should be grateful for such a lovely life, and perfect health, i'm just desperate for that BFP!

Have you tested again yet hunni?

I last tested on Tuesday, and it was negative. Maybe it's time to test again, but i just can't bring myself to do it, it's probably bad news anyway

I found a great website showing the journey off fertilization all the way through to birth, it was amazing http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/miracle...2816_q_01.html
There are 8 chapters, it really did take my breath away!

I'm feeling better today, i'm so pleased for all these ladies gettier their BFP's, congratulations girls, you must be on
I really hope it's my turn soon, we are doing everything right. BDing like mad, i'm sitting with my legs in the air for hours , taking my folic acid. Maybe i'm doing something wrong?
I really did think i was pregnant last month, i had all the symptoms. It's amazing how your body tricks you into thinking you are.
Even though i'm really enjoying ttc, its wearing me down a little. My life really does revolve around BDing, HPT's, and checking my knickers all the time.
My AF is late, but i think it's just down to the pill messing me about. I've taken loads of HPT's - all negative. I'm promising myself not to touch another one for a couple of weeks now.

It's just one of those days i think

Feeling much better today, a little more positive.
I'm trying to resign myself to the fact that it will happen when it happens, and i should just enjoy all this time before getting pregnant. Was speaking to my mum about children last night (No-one knows we are TTC, except one of my friends and b&b) and she said "Well Alice i really think you should not have children until you are well into your 30's and have had a career"

How wrong is she! I think she will be awful when i have to tell her i'm pregnant. She is really old school, and the thought of my fiance and i having a baby before being married horrifies her! We don't need to be married to be good parents!

Oh Alice, believe it or not your last post has made me smile.

It reminds me of my own mother. Talk about being prudish!! She was the Worlds Greatest Prude I promise you and noone would have been good enough to have gone out with me when I was younger, never mind marry etc.

Well, when I got into my late 30's and she saw there was no sign of me settling down with anyone, she came out with a clanger one day in the kitchen. She suggested that I have a baby and her exact words were "you don't need to be married or even have a permanent partner nowadays to have a baby". I nearly fell over I was so shocked.

Just goes to show time and desperation changes even the strongest of minds. Well here I am in my mid 40's, just got married for the 1st time last September and trying for baby #1 and hoping it's possible.

You just relax and do what you feel is right. It's your body, your life and your circumstances that are being questioned. Only you have the right answers. So get that sad little icon off you avatar right now lady!!!!!

Aww tishimouse, thanks so much. I was just staring at her, just thinking, well ...
The feeling that your parents are disapointed in you, is the worst feeling in the world. I know she will have 9 months to come round to the idea (I'm not even pregnant yet *rolls eyes*) but i don't want her to be upset with me becuase i haven't focused on my career. I'm only a nursery nurse for goodness sake, it's not the most well paid job in the world. Mums eh!

Suddenly, this afternoon, i was feeling really, really maternal. I was just thinking how absoloutley amazing humans are! We can create a perfect little human being just by 2 cells!

I know thats totally obvious, but after watching those video's yesterday, i'm just so amazed and excited about getting my BFP. I can't wait to create something so perfect and so beautiful. When i was younger i always had my heart on a baby boy, with jet black hair, and green eyes ... i was obsessed. But now, i do not care, all i want is totally healthy baby - boy or girl!

We've been at my mum's this weekend, it's been a little hard, she's made a few comments that have made me feel a bit anxious, but i'm sure if i did fall pregnant and told her, she would be happy! It would be her first gandchild after all.

My period is late this month, i'm really praying that this is my month - but i can't help thinking that it's probably just the remains of the pill messing me about. I wish i had never taken the pill now .. it just seems wrong to mess about with your body in an un-natural way. I don't think i will go back on the pill again.

I really hope we all get our BFP's this month!