Hello girlies,
Gosh, i'm really bad at updating this diary!
AF has still not shown her face. I tested a few days ago, still a
I'm going to the doctors tonight to make an appointment for a blood test. I hope i can go through with it this time, i'm terrible with needles.

I don't feel pregnant, nor have i had any symptoms, so i kinda know it will be negative, but i'd rather just eliminate pregnancy now before i get a little bit excited.
So, my last period was 13th March, and im pretty sure i ovulated on the 26/27 of that month. Right now i would be about 6 weeks 4 days pregnant, surely a HPT would detect that by now?
I'm pretty convinced that the pill is still messing with me. TTC is such a massive waiting game, it's so tiring.
So we saw 11 week old baby Helena at the weekend, she was absoloutley adorable, i was cuddling her all afternoon! it made TTC all that more real to me, i want my own child, my own little one to hold in my arms and watch her fall asleep.
Even the not so great bits about motherhood excite me; nasty nappies, sleepless nights, morning sickness, labour .. gosh i could go on! I would do anything to have my own child.
My OH step-mum is quite anti kids, and i overheard her saying "Is Ally taking her pill? She seems so happy with Helena, do you think she would purposely not take it to bet pregnant blah blah".
I was mortified! Thank goodness OH replied with "Of course not, and if she was it would be something we would discuss together. We're ready to have babies anyway!"
I'm soo pissed off at her, why would she say something as mean as that?! We've been together for a longggg time, were engaged, have a nice place to live, we can provide for our baby, goshh! FMIL's are irritating.
Anway i won't waste my breath on her!!

I'm going to be marching up to the doctors at 4pm today and making that appointment! I need to get on with my life!!

Hey honey,
So sorry the is messing you around and family is being a bit of a pain

Keep positive and fingers crossed for the Dr, at least that way you can have an answer either way

Well AF is now around 23 days late. No sign of her at all. GP told me to 'wait it out' .. Arrghhh!!
I'm beginning to dispair, how irritating!

Spoke to my cousins girlfriend today whos 7 months pregnant, she was going on and on and on about the baby (and so she should!) and my heart was sinking every time

When is it our turn girlies?!

I don't know Ally, I don't know but its gotta be 6 months sooner than when you started out?! hun cos I know how hard it is to stay positive xxxx

Every day that passes, is a day closer to our BFP xx

Hope you're doing ok hun xx

Hey sweetie
How you doing?

I'm rubbish at keeping this diary up!

I absoloutely NO closer to getting my .. or getting a visit from
I'm frustrated, but kinda, i don't know, ok about it.
is now 34/35 days late, so thats over a month, i don't know what to think, and i certainly don't want to think i'm pregnant .. sods law always seems to want to be my friend!

Since March 13 this year, OH and i have BD pretty much every day (sometimes twice ) .. so there's got to be a chance that we've conceived?

My 'symptoms' shall i say have been gradually building up, as of today they are:

~ Sore nipples. The last few days it was just the left one, now both are hurting.

~ Wet feeling down below!

~ Niggly, twitchy, crampy feelings on right lower abdomen side, and sometimes in the middle

~ Absoloute crushing tiredness, and i mean crushing tiredness! I'm whacked!

~ Headachey/Hungover feeling

~ About 4 days ago, i had a watered down pinky/bloody watery dischargey thingy in my knicks. It was like water, it was damp almost.

Now, i really, really, really, don't want to get excited, and i'm not. I'm expecting AF to show up soon, she'll probably come in the next few days, and i will be so happy! I haven't had a period for two months, so it will be great to chart again and plan when to BD and stuff.

I feel like i've been left in limbo at the moment. The last time i took a HPT was 11 days ago, and it was a BFN.
60% of me doesn't want to test, because i don't want to see that BFN crap again .. i'm scared i think.
But then 40% of me really wants to test, but i don't want to get happy, then have to crash back down again, i'll be moody for days!

I know the pill probably has a lot to do with it, and thats why my period hasn't arrived. But surely, after one natural period, and constant BDing after that, surely i have a chance??

And i forgot to add, i've been having very vivid, clear dreams!

Hi hun, still hanging in there then.