jacky24

O well another day in TTC land

My cramping is slowly going away now, and my back is feeling much beter.
Yes me DH got some Bding in last night, im just a bit worried as DH is still very ill, and he has been drinking flu medication, been keeping him away from the antibiotics for now. I think i Might have O'd yetserday as im not so uncomfortable yesterday, but we will never know until i get either AF or a .

Im feeling very down right now, as i know DH is hidding something from me, i just can't place my finger on it at the moment, but i normally catch him out when he is up to no good.

Well i have decided if i don't get this month i am gonna start temping next month, might give me a beter idea of if i am Oing or not. As im not going for my CD21 blood tests anymore, it stresses me out to much and drives me to booze sex and smokes.

I went too see my friend yesterday, she does predictions and she was so right about me losing CJ and how i lost him, before i even had signs of pre-eclampsia.
She said she thinks im pregnant and it is going to be a GIRL, which i don't care what it will be i just want a healthy baby to call my own.

And me and DH need to start eating carrots by the tons, as she said that is my key for a . So going to go buy all the carrots i can find and start becoming a bunny, makes sence thou, mate like bunnies eat like bunnies

jolyn

Carrots eh? Interesting she thinks ur pg tho - let's hope she's right

Temping is good cos u always kno where u r instead of guessing - I didn't have a clue b4 I started, I would def recommend it if u don't get ur bfp this cycle.

Soz to hear there's something going on with ur DH, hope it's nothing major and u can sort it out soon, I think u shud sort it out asap tho cos u don't need any extra stress when ur ttc.

jacky24

Thanks Jolyn, well with DH

I really can't complain he is an amazing man, he does so much for me, it's just he is a ladies man, and because he is so good hearted the girls go crazy over him, and he sees it as just harmless flirting and attention seeking but i want to lose it.

When we just got married he admited to having something on with a married women before we got together, and she has been hassling him, so firstly he was honost about it, but then she would phone when we are sleeping, and i lost it and changed DH cell number.

Then we go watch DH cousins play rugby they are 15 and 17 years old, now of course young girls very bothered with the older men, it's a constant giggle and flirt and laugh i mean he is 25years old, but a married man. And all he says it is just school girls angel leave them.

And now this morning i gave him money for dinner tonight and he has baught airtime for his phone but he never phones me

I don't know what to do anymore.

jolyn

Men eh?

My DH is the same to some extent, he went to an all girls school (long story) and knows loads of girls from there. He's always quite flirty with girls, but I swear half the time he doesn't realised what he's doing! I do trust him 100% though and know he would never do anything to hurt me, it's the girls I don't trust

Unfortunately trust is something that comes from the heart and no matter what is done to prove it to you, unless u feel it there then ur head won't listen. This is a big thing for u and DH, does he know how much of an issue it is? I often make a big issue in my head out of nothing and expect poor DH to know automatically what is going on

I also wouldn't mind betting that the extra hormones floating round ur body aren't helping things, they can make us very irrational without us even realising.

I don't really know what else to say - just talk it through with him, he sounds like he will understand and take on board what ur saying, especially if he says how much it is upsetting u.

jacky24

Thanks jolyn

I do trust my DH i also as u don't trust the girls around him. I think he is actually more hormonal than i am at this stage.

He told me last night he would give anything for us to have a little baby, for something so special and precious mixed into a bundle of joy that is a little of me and him in one.

I also think as it is coming closer to CJ 1st B-day we are both just so confused and sad with alot of mixed emotions.

But we will be fine i know we will.

jolyn

Hopefully u'll get ur bfp soon and all ur troubles will seem far away. Sounds like ur feeling a bit betta already.

jacky24

Thanks im feeling tons beter.
After having a smoke and a toasted bacon, egg,cheese and tomato sarmie. mmmmmmmm lunch time in SA

Only time will tell and time will heal our heart ace.

Lazy Leo

Hey hun, I hope your friend is right! Carrots - I love carrots, do you think it might work for me?! I really hope these bigger boobs are a great sign - go girl!!!

jolyn

How r u today hun? Anymore symptoms? Nothing to report here as usual xx

yaya

Just wanted to stop by, say 'hi' and send some to my fellow SAfrican ttc'er!

Yaya xxx