My sister was convinced AF was coming the 2 days before her BFP - she was in agony!! Fingers crossed....x

OH asked me to take another HPT this morning, same horrid BFN result
I did say to him beforehand that it wasn't a good idea as he'd just end up being gutted again but he was insistant that he'd be ok. Of course he wan't ok, he was as upset as he was at the BFN 2 days ago.

I'm trying to write this but I'm having a great deal of trouble concentrating of sitting still as I'm in quite a bit of pain. My lower back and round the front of my tummy are agony. I feel quite dizzy with the pain now, only a little browny red spotting so far so the hasn't put in a full apprearance as yet. I've never had an AF this bad before.

God this is really sore

AF came as I expected after the horrific amount of pain I was in yesterday.I have never had any AF symptoms that bad before, thankfully it passed after an hour or 2. AF been quite light though, I was expecting far more than I got given the amount of pain I had. Cycle day 2 now, not long till we can start again this month so that's something. The not knowing was far worse

We are armed and dangerous this time though. I bought a BBT thermometer and chart, Pre-Seed, plenty of cheapo HPT's, some reading material, evening primrose capsules for the first half of my cycle and I've been taking multivitamins and folic acid so we're well equipped now. We haven't really done anything to actively help things move along up till now but given how upsetting this month has been then I think putting our energies into something positive is the way to go

Think positive - Good luck x

Into cycle day 4, we're both being so negative right now its unreal. My AFs have been very short over the past few months compared to what they were. I was always a 29 day cycle with 5 days AF, now I'm 30 day cycle with only 2 days AF. Unsure whether this is could potentially have something to do with our lack of baby status atm. OH wants to do another fertility test to check its not him. Who'd have thought getting pg would be so hard

No kidding. I'm sure I've said this before, but imagine, we spend most of our adult lives making sure we DON'T get pg... YEESH! what on earth for?!?!? Sometimes I think the best bc is TRYING! ... so that's my whinge for the morning I know its hard, but TRY to stay positive - your bubba needs good vibes to start life in!!! and !

i agree, on my 6th month of ttc after 11 years of bcp, just think whats the point of the bcp, not that easy to become pg!!

Thanks ladies, thought I was mad for thinking that. We spend the majority of our adult lives scared we'll end up pg then when we desperately want to be pg, it takes an age to happen!

I've been trying my best to chill out about the whole thing, but my brain won't come out of baby mode. I CANNOT stop thinking about it, no matter where OH and I look, there are pg women! In movies we watch, passing by in the street, they're bloody everywhere! OH always turns to me and says "aw look, no fair!"

My cousin however, is exception to my jealousy of pg ladies. She tried for a year (somehow I feel like she is "deserving" of the baby due to the length of time she tried for) and she went into labour at 3am today. Nothings happened as yet though, poor thing I don't know why but I can see a long labour ahead for her. I'll be sure to hold the baby plenty when he arrives and hope some new baby dust will fall on me.

Oh, and I got a new job today so that should alleviate money worries and the huge amounts of stress my previous job put on me. Can only mean good things ahead!!!

Just back from the doctor, she was far better about this than I expected. I didn't think she'd listen to me as we've only been TTC for coming up on 5 cycles now. She tok swabs to check for any possible infection, but then did an internal exam and said everything looks and feels ok. So that's something good at least!

I've to go back on 29th Feb to have bloods taken to make sure I'm ovulating

Awwwww, my cousin had a wee boy!

So pleased for her

Going to go and meet him this weekend and hopefully get me some babydust