Samo

03/06/2008 - trying hard not to "force BD" onto myself, as hard as that is. I'm pretty dry, CM wise, which is not normal for me. Usually approaching O time, there are noticeable CM changes but so far none? Maybe the dryness is contributing or contributed by my lack of libido. We did BD last night, but didn't last for long, it was a bit painful. I'm starting to get bloated and constipated *UGH* which usually happens this time of month, but i just want to note the day its started. I feel like such a fatty cow!!! I keep pinching the "fat" in my torso...and i swear my arms are starting to get flabby! I should buy some weights and work out a bit.

On a cleaning spree today to try and cheer me up. The combination of rainy/gloomy weather and a messy kitchen is stressing me out! Does that ever happen to anyone? you see a mess in the house and you get stressed out? It just makes me want to SCREAM that my living room looks like a hurricane's gone through it. DH doesn't seem to notice what I "think" is a "mess" and i guess no amount of "look at that paper on the floor! That cup left on the side table!" will convince him that it looks a wreck!! Perhaps it's nesting instincts?!

TrixieLox

I'm the same Samo, get a proper stress on if everything's untidy and I'm tired / stressed and I have to tidy up. OH is working this weekend so he can't tidy so it's just me tidying. I do understand about the low libido thang - mine isn't really high, just medium I guess but somehow, this month, my body's co-operating and I'm up for it but not like that in other months. Don't put pressure on urself - and maybe buy some pre-seed (not sure if u've tried it?).Anyway hon, sorry to read you're feeling down - after a few glasses of wine yesterday, I felt very deflated and scared I won't ever get PG. I get angry too - why the hell can't I get PG when I'm healthy and stuff, and when we have the money to afford a baby and a happy relationship and yet people I know with no money, who are in an unhappy / abusive rel get PG straight away? Anyway hon, we're all here 4 u! x

Samo

Trixie

03/09/2008 - I found myself forgetting what day of the month it is! I stated to think my CD was the monthly day! OMGOSH! I was thinking "Hmmm already the 12th...wait, Ovulation should be around the 12th, crap i forgot it?!" then realized wait wait...its CD12 not March12! My dates are all screwed up now because of my TTC cycle tracking . I'm constantly looking at the calendar...

BD'd today too finally it wasn't the best, still struggling a bit, but the deed is done. But i started to hurt afterwards like, down there, sorry TMI. To the point i didn't want to stand up or stand still, i had to sit down, not sure what it was? First thought was 'is it a UTI?" but then i don't know what a UTI feels like and i wasn't hurting from using the restroom...it was just pain when i was standing up for a long time. I hope it's nothing bad

Samo

03/09/2008 - middle of the night update, getting lower left ovary pain/cramps ovulation is coming~ wheeee

niknaknat

Awwwwwww, good luck for this cycle chick...i really really hope this is your month

Chellebelle

have lots of fun bd-ing Samo!!! Catch that egg!!!

p.s. my OH bought a new shooting game for his PS3 on Friday, and I told him that it's quite simple really, all he has to do is pretend that my little eggy is one of the aliens from his game and shoot it without missing

LouiseClare

Good luck Samo. I hope this is your month.

I hope you catch the egg.

Phexia

GO GO GO SAMO!

Samo

03/11/2008 - I AM SO ANGRY - BEYOND BELIEF. ARRRGGGGG

Ok...had a HUGE surge of EWCM...i know! great! Go BD!

Well we did...BUT...DH COULD NOT FOR THE LIFE OF HIM ORGASM. I'm sorry TMI BUT COME ON. I was starting to get tired...tried to enjoy things and try for a bit longer than usual...nothing, it just started to get sore and hurt after a while, know what i mean? And he just had to stop, laughing and saying 'i dunno whats wrong with me' . So there i am just left there in total shock thinking what did i do wrong!? And then he manually stimulates himself by himself when i went to the washroom...and THATS IT...kjghfxdcgndfglnlfgfdxlnxlghdfgdnfgsk

I'm through. i am done. DONE DONE DONE. screw this month, it ain't gonna happen. and I am so crushed, i am not even talking to him right now. ARRRG

TrixieLox

I replied 2 ur other post honey but chin up. I know this is just totally shite but you BD'd 2 days ago so that's real good timing to catching the egg. Sounds like you're OVing now and your chances of falling PG from BDing 2-3 days b4 OV are bigger than BDing the day before so don't worry; don't beat yourself up.

Me going on about BDing as much as u can in other posts probs don't help - but I'm all mouth and no action, we're not BDing every day. Just do what you feel is right and natural, don't force anything. x